my name is amy i am 22 and i have a 4 year old i have nowhere to turn i feel as though i am going around in circles , i dont know where to start my head is very mixed up the only thing i have left to lose is my child .i have lost my job i ruined my education i lost my partner of 6 years , all because of gambling when i started out gambling it was only scratchcards and lottery but then i started online gambling 100s of sites bingo ,slots poker you name it , being a gambler is very lonely i have no friends because of it no social life , i dislike being around people gambling has made me depressed and has me thinking there is no way out ,i am in alot of debt with payday loans my life is truly over and ruined there is so much built up and so much to say but ill leave it at that now all i can say is i have thought i would be better off not alive but the thing that keeps me going is that i have a little girl to provide for and look after that needs me she has no one else 🙁 please help
Aww Amy please don't think there is no way out of this. I'm not the best qualified to answer you so I hope someone else answers you with more knowledge. I've only came on for the first time today as well.The things that have happened due to your addiction are awful and the debt must seem overwhelming but d'you know what? you have a lovely little girl who needs you and loves you and nothing is worth leaving her without a mummy for. My mum who's now dead sadly used to have a saying about people worrying about debts she would say just remember its money,no ones dying and what are they going to do? Take you out and shoot you? Of course not. I don't mean to make light of your situation I know it's not that simple. I think by coming on here we've both taken the first step but I do think u need to go to your Dr and explain how you are feeling and he should be able to refer you to people who can help. I had an addiction to strong opioid drugs that my mum was given when she was dying and as a single parent of 3 daughters aged 28,20 and 11 I also had thoughts that they'd be better off without me but now that I've been given the help I needed and am through the other side I can look back and realise that if I had done something stupid of course they wouldn't have been better off without me. I was scared that doctor would involve social workers and was terrified they'd think I wasn't a good mum but it was nothing like that. They were extremely helpful if I needed it and stepped back when I no longer felt the need to see them. Amy you're young with your whole life ahead I know it seems bleak just now but I promise you it won't always be like this. I also isolated myself from people. I still do to a certain extent but I'm working on it. There is help out there and my daughter who's 28 and a single parent has had payday loans companies after her too. She bought a flat 6 years ago but unfortunately her job went down to a 4 day week so she struggled to pay the mortgage and took out one of these loans she ended up having house repossessed and now owes bank 75,000 I know she couldn't sleep for worry but has now approached debt help people and has been advised to go bankrupt. Is this a possibility for you? I know I'm more talking about your money issues but as I've said I'm new to this as well so can't really help with gambling addiction part as I need that help too. Sorry I've went on a bit here Amy but I felt so sad when I read your post. Please go for help even to doctor first as he might not be able to take away your addiction but I think u might need something for depression which can at least help you to cope and not feel so desperate. Lots of luck for the future honey "And this too will pass" (my granny's saying) and don't hesitate to message me if you need someone to talk to xx
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