So here I am,
49 years old , been gambling for 40 years with nothing to show for it .
Well that’s not totally true .I’m £30000 in debt with no way of paying it back.
I’ve been single most of my life though most people would describe me a sociable, intelligent and honest . Everything I have done for the last 30 years has revolved around gambling in some way or another.I’ve never used any winnings to benefit my life or circumstances and ultimately I’ve used gambling as my go to place when I’m lonely or down .
I can’t believe it myself when I look back at all the opportunities I’ve missed and situations I’ve messed up due to my habit. It’s all my own fault but it’s time to stop now.I can’t change my past but I can potentially change my future.
Hopefully .
I’m at rock bottom but I’m going to try to get myself a new life. A life I’ve never had before .
I pride myself on never quitting but this is quitting (gambling) timeÂ
NonrunnerÂ
Recognise a lot of your story! Especially gambling being a go to place when lonely or down.Â
You are right about changing the future. You will also get support on here, either with advice or just someone to talk to about things. I've just recently signed up here but I've been reading the forum for many months.
All the best, Nonrunner!Â
Hey Nonrunner,
Everyone has their own 'rock bottom'....
40 years and only down 30K!  Ha.
And it is never too late, not while you are alive and fighting...Â
You are ONLY 49. They say life begins at 50 these days, 50 being the new 40 ahaha
Get clean and you got years and years to build a new great life...
You just got to want it badly enough...
Keep fighting...
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I'm same 52 and gambled years the guilt you feel is awful I've done 13 days now gf and I'm sticking to it because I feel so bad and I'm so embarrassed Â
Cheers everyone,
the support and best wishes are greatly appreciated.
Not only did I join the forum today ,but i attended my first
Gamblers anonymous meeting today also.To have someoneÂ
take an interest in a very personal problem makes it that bitÂ
easier to face it head on with a bit of self belief. I know this won't
be an easy battle but I'm ready to take it on .
Thanks for your support !
Nonrunner
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Well done for 13 days gf spendspendspend .I share your embarrassment and how bad you feel but maybe that will be what can drive both of us on to beating this .
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The price we pay for our addictions can be too high to bear sometimes...
I had all the addictions... If it was poker I would have had the cursed Royal Flush.
I have a grand daughter who is two that I have never seen and my second daughter who hasn't spoken to me in 10 years is 8 months pregnant (apparently!)
I sometimes wonder how my life would have turned out if I had never had kids...
Doesn't sound that great from what you are saying...
Be grateful for what you have, and careful what you wish for...
The grass isn't always greener.
Stick with it, it is the only way out of the hole...
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Hi... am much the same... a bloke, late 40's, on my own for much of my life, squandered thousands, debts that I may never fully pay off.Â
It is what it is and trust me there are lots of us in a similar position. Your not alone.
I guess the bottom line is this... All we have is now.
We gotta throw off that comfort blanket called gambling other wise we will just have more of the same
Keep reading and writing, it does help
All the best.. S.A
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Yeah , I am where I am right now . I know I’m not the only one out there suffering and  at the moment I’m at my lowest .Â
I will fight though , and want to have a better life one dayÂ
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