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Wow you must be my twin. This is a very familiar story . I started on bingo sites playing bingo with small amounts, i then discovered instant games and was hooked - scratch cards to begin with played with £2.50 won £2,500. What excitement! Banked it but then deposited more and kept losing. I have probably played in every single bingo site there is over 100 who knows!! And am hooked on hi lo games winning £1,000s and losing it all again. Decided to move my computer to a more public place in the house two months ago has stopped me however i found i could gamble on mobile phone. Last saturday was the final straw where i was up all night. I gambled £500 won £5,000 and then lost it all again!! How stupid. I havent gambled for 4 days now. I have been able to block my bank cards on my favourite site the only one that has hi lo games on mobile ( i know i've checked) so i am on the road yo revovery. Good luck and thanks for sharing your story

Read both your posts with great interest and I can identify with much of what you say. I'm on day 6 at the moment of abstinence and feeling proud of myself. Not going to get too carried away though, eh ? I'm in the 2015 challenge. Had the odd twinge over the last few days. Not to much of a problem to resist. Online blocks in place anyway. Got to go into town today but I'm confident I can keep out of the usual dens. I will check in on the Challenge tomorrow with hopefully a positive post.

Best Wishes to all.

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When we make this about finances we will never escape.

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If i believe that its a financial problem then once i have solved that then surely my brain will tell me i no longer have an issue any more & i can move on with my life happily. This didnt happen i continue to repeat the process. Why ? Do i need extra money if i dont gamble sure it would be nice but i dont need it. So there must be another reason i continue to do something that causes problems in my life.Something that overides everything all my core values have taught me. Something that makes me put gambling above my family my friends my career

I think we also need to be totally honest with ourselves too.

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A person is vulnerable to addiction when that person feels a lack of satisfaction in life, an absence of intimacy of strong connections to other people, a lack of self worth no compelling interests a loss of hope.
It is a dependence on a substance or behaviour in order to make oneself feel momentarily calmer or more excited or less dissatisfied with their lives

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