Given Up

Hi BW241,

I'd be lying if I said this thought had never crossed my mine, albeit briefly. But I know personally I wouldn't bring myself to do it. You should value nothing more than your life, and, at 27, you have most of it ahead of you.

Have you ever spoken to a close friend or family member regarding what you're struggling with?

Or excluded yourself from the places which are causing you this harm?

It's easy for me to offer this advice, yet I'm trying to follow it myself. But the last thing anyone wants to see is someone suffering the most pain from a mental addiction.

OTDCW

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Yes spoken to friends and family who want to do nothing but help which now after countless relapses, I think makes it worse. I promise to quit and swear that's my last bet, then I'm back in the same scenario all over again.

I think because of this maybe ending it has become a more prevalent thought. Almost throwing the towel in and admitting defeat with the only way to end it all.

I keep trying, and trying and trying. I pray one day I'll break free from this nightmare.

You say you try & try & im sure you do. But are you trying using the same methods ie willpower or are you trying by doing things such as attending GA, getting professional help, barriers?
There is so much help out there, use everything on offer.

Dan

Hello bw241,

I am sorry to hear that you feel so low that you see suicide as the only way out. If you started gambling so young it means that you almost don’t know any other way of being but you can start again and learn different things that would give you meaning and enjoyment. It could be that you are suffering from depression, if the thoughts are very frequent, so please talk to your GP about it.

There is no need to suffer in silence.

About getting your gambling under control you would need professional support as it is an addiction and it is not easy to overcome it on your own. At the end of the day you don’t need to be on your own in this. You're welcome to contact our advisers on 0808 8020 133 which is free on the main mobile networks. We're open from 8am until midnight, 7 days a week. Alternatively, you can use the Netline to connect to us.

I wish you all the best,

Ana

@Bw There are many forms of help out there bud, I seriously urge you to reach out and grab them!

Almost all of us have been in a similar position - feeling down and out, me for certain. If you take a look at the recovery diaries and success stories on this forum, everybody is capable of turning themselves around and creating a better life for themselves. You can do this too! It'l take time, persistance, and determination, but with so much of your life ahead of you, you've admitted you've got a problem at the right time, stay strong and take it one day at a time.

As Forum Admin mentioned, you can ring up and arrange counselling sessions to help you plan out a recovery programme, understand what is causing you to gamble, and a heloing hand from somebody that understands. I am having counselling and it's really helping after 6+ years of addiction.

There are also gamblers anonymous meetings that aren't as daunting as they first seem. I attended for 8 weeks and they set me on my most recent period of abstainance. Group recovery can work incredibly well and you can build up a support network around you of people that have been in the same situation as you.

Best wishes bud. Take the advice that's on offer.

-Ryan