Hi everyone,
Im 34 and ive been gambling for 15 years!!!! Today ive hit my 27th day of no gambling, not 1 penny gambled at all and im so sick of it that i dont even want to play. 15 years... i cant begin to explain how i feel about that, 15 years and thousands of pounds gone, nights ive wasted sitting in doors whilst my mates were out, i was a horrible person.
However, Something strange is now happening to me, its difficult to explain but here it goes and hopefully this will help you guys out aswell knowing whats on he other side of this nightmare!
I getting all sorts of emotions running through my body thinking about the past, its like ive been living in darkness all these years and now everything seems so clear. I was looking at myself in the mirror today and i was jsut staring and thinking who are you??? Who have i been the last 15 years? ive just realised that the dirty digusting diease GAMBLING put me into a depressed state and i didnt even know it.
Guys... if any is reading this... please please please stop! find a way and it will happen. I feel so diffrent now and its only been 27 days. i feel like crying! i cant explain, the dumness has gone, but i feel weak because i can see now how many yearas and how much money ive wasted.
Please im begging you stop this, look in the mirror and tell yourself to stop
What im feeling now is something i cant descripe, cerain smellls are bringing back memories from when i was young, soooo strange. I probably sound a bit mad but i just needed to let it out!
Chris
Hi Chris , well done on your 27 days my friend !. We all seem to get this emotional rollercoaster , I know I did , all over the place crying one minute , happy the next . I think it's all the pent up feelings weve been ignoring while gambling , your regaining your life back and all it has to offer , you begin to notice things that youv'e been ignorant to for many years !
Welcome back to your life , Welcome to recovery my friend , Enjoy !!
Hi chris london,
Thanks for your post, and well done for being bold and brave about your gambling history.
To have been gambling for good 15 years, and now managed to abstain for 27 days is a good effort, and it seems it’s already doing you a lot of good. With your determination to stop, and the support from this forum, you’ll hopefully keep progressing on your achievement.
Who knows, your story may be a wake-up call for others too. As you might have realised, the Forum is a platform that encourages and enables problem gamblers to do something about their gambling problem by sharing their stories, and also provides the peer to peer support as well. Thus you learn from each other’s experiences.
The mixed emotions you get is not unusual; in fact it’s part of the healing process, and it’ll hopefully settle with time. It seems like you’ve realised the difference it can make when you give up gambling.
I suggest that you try and stay in touch with us, so we can offer you more help and support in case you need it.
Maybe, you’d like to contact our free phone Helpline on: 0808 8020 133, and speak to one of our advisers about your gambling problem, and the progress you’re making, and perhaps find out about other options that can help with your recovery. An adviser can refer you to 12 sessions of free counselling if you think that would help you in your effort to stop gambling.
Pls. do contact us any day, and anytime between 8.00am and midnight.
Thanks once again for your post, and pls. keep posting.
Best wishes,
Beatrice
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