Hi all,
So prior to joining this site today I had not gambled to around 7/8 months on the dreaded online games/casinos until last night.
things had slowly creeped back into my routine, I started buying lottery tickets again and the odd scratch card, truly believed I could control to urge gamble. However I was very wrong and gambled online last night. The intensity of my urges at the moment are unbearable.
Hand on my heart I want to stop more than anything. I want that black cloud lifted.
At the age of 26 I feel I am still young enough to turn things around and focus on my career and future. The last 10 years have been fuelled with gambling and I am a broken record. Keep stopping and starting.
I am an addict, I have a very addictive behaviour and I am very quick to lean over and push the self destruct button.
I fear I am so close to losing my partner if I don't get this sorted and I would be beyond devastated if that ever happened.
I have referred myself for counselling today, I did try it last year but stopped after a couple of sessions, I need to stick to the programme and I know it will help.
Any advice or feedback would be great. I intend to channel my addictive personality to the gym and instead of destroying my wallet I will get a six pack!!
Dan
Hi Dan, I'm new to the site too and can really sympathise with how you are feeling. I want the black cloud lifted too.
I'm working on stopping this addiction and getting my life back on track. I can't offer much wisdom or advice, being in the same boat as you, however I would say think about your partner if you get the temptation to gamble. You are lucky to have her and you obviously love her very much, so focus on your relationship and I hope that will get you through.
Good luck x
Thanks bow wow, think I have been reading this site for past four hours and feel very emotional.
It's a boyfriend not a girlfriend (not that it's important!!) He finds it very hard to understand, he was blessed with a take it or leave it attitude and is so laid back.
Pressed save before I finished the message!
Anyway best of luck with your journey. Stay strong.
Hi dgill07263
How are you doing? Hope the black cloud has lifted for you.
Sorry for the "girlfriend" slip up!
BowWow
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