I just wanted to be heard :(

Hi Pete if only everyone could see the benefit of the path you've taken. Keep doing what is working for you. I could never have survived without Gamanon.

Great work Pete.

The rewards of not gambling are much greater than any that you will get from gambling.
Damo

Hi Pete123

I was encouraged to read of all the hard work and commitment you have put into your recovery path. Thanks so much for sharing these on the forum. It sounds like you're proud of this work and so you should be!

Kindest regards

Leigh

Forum Admin

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Thank you for your kind messages.

Kind regards, Pete123

Hi Pete,

You are right to be proud of yourself for how much change you have embarked on, life has thrown so much at you from an early age the escape of any addiction would seem logical. Self pity is another common trait of an addict as we like ot wallow and feel sorry for ourselves, but you sir have said no more and taken action.

I wish you well on your journey to a happy healthy life without the demons taking over. Im a stranger but even I am proud of how well you are doing. Its inspiring to read it.

Hi everyone. Just a quick update from my previous post on 20^th August 2018

With regards to my £18,000 debt, I had been paying my creditors £1 per month token payments over the last three years. I discussed my situation/options in considerable depth with Step-Change, and as a result have recently been granted a Debt Relief Order.

I am a compulsive gambler… in recovery. I am dedicated to attending weekly GA meetings and have done since 2^nd October 2017 (currently our GA meetings are online via Zoom).

I have just read back at my original post, dated 8^th November 2016 and realise the extent in which compulsive gambling was affecting/destroying my self-worth and esteem:

‘my mind and body are in agony as a result of me gambling’

‘I hate myself so much, for being so stupid’

‘With every ounce of my pathetic being …’

‘I have to live knowing I have been such a stupid foolish idiot and I now hate myself so much that it hurts. I feel so ashamed, so horribly ashamed’

‘I know the reality that I cannot stop myself, and that fills me with terror and dread’

Well, I can honestly say that I have not gambled for 2 years and 8 months.

I am free of the self-destruction and self-hatred caused by gambling; I cannot begin to describe how wonderful that feels.

Thank you for listening.

Kind regards, Pete123

Good job squire. Nice to see you doing well. Same here, been over 2 years for me.

Thanks mccawpa.

Congratulations on being free of gambling for 2 years now. It is such a great achievement to be free from such destructive behaviour that was once dominating aspects of our lives. Well done ✔

Thanks Joe-90.

My apologies for such a late reply. Hope things are going well for you.