Im a casino dealer working full time hours. I stared betting seriously last year on nba games and did quite well was up on most occations but looking back i was only up because i chased every loss and it luckliy won. For example if i did a bet of $1000 and it loss i would then do a $5000 bet on something that paid 1.20 and get it back. This happened on multiple occasions and I shoudlve took that as a sign to stop as i clearly cannot take a loss and wasnt meant for gambling.
I then started betting on horses and greyhounds which i also did well in was up and down but never loss any of my own money. I remember i was up $6000 at one point and decided that i should self exclude but didnt trust the widrawl to come through if i self exlcuded. then went on to give $5000 back the next day. At that point i knew i had a problem and actually did self exclude which stopped me from gambling for a solid year.
This year however a friend of mine introduced me to pokies and within the first week i had won about $2000. This is where my problem started as they are highly addictve and are literally everywhere you go. I ended up giving back that $2000 as i went in just to play with $100 in one session about 2 weeks later again another sign that I cannot control my gambing.
Now being a casino dealer we cannot gamble at our casino. So its just common for dealers to go interstate to gamble. We decided to go for a gambling trip and my budget was $2500. I ended up losing $6000 playing mainly baccarat. I was up $1500 during the first 10 minutes i did a $300 bet and lost was determined to get that back kept chipping up and lost $2000 within half an hour and then proceeded to lose $6000 within 8 hours. That was all the money i had at the time. I told myself that this is a life lesson and that im not made for gambling however few days later i was back at the pokies and lost another $300 since then Ive proceeded to gamble even when i tell myself that Im not going to.
Now the $10000 debt is because of crypto. i had taken out a loan last year for crypto and was actually doing really well even after the crash. But guess what. I sold that crypto on a low so i could gamble when i was interstate. Im typing this as ive just lost another $450 on a football game and also lost $850 last night at the pokies after i had a few drinks at the bar.
Im typing this to my future self so you can see how low your life got and how amazing your life is right now because youve stopped gambling. Today is going to be the best day of my life as im going to self exclude from all pokie venues and self exclue from all sportsbetting accounts. Life lesson learnt
Day 1 Not feeling too bad about myself as im trying to keep reminding myself that im doing my future self a favour by not betting. I called ACA VIC self exclusion to be self excluded from local pokie venues. The meeting is on the 27th June. About 10 days from now. I have deleted my b****5 app and have no desire to bet on sports atm. Dont really feel like going pokies anyway right now.
I'm determined that i will keep this up. The real test will be when i get paid as right now i only have $500 to last me till payday which is in 10 days. I really believe that i can do this because i dont think i have gambled long enough to really be mentally addicted to it. Ive only gambled for a month or two at a time but when i do i gamble big. So to break this habbit it should be fairly easy.
Hi I'm guessing you're in Australia. I don't know if they have GA. Don't think it's easy. It's difficult, probably the most difficult addiction to give up. If you've become addicted so easily which is the machines intention, it will have a hold on you already. Be vigilant, this is forever. Be careful if you think you can go back and control it. Good luck!
just had a relapse, went to the local pokies thinking ill do 50c bets ended up winning 120 gave it all back and lose 120. just realised that i cannot even go in just for fun as i used that as an excuse to go in today. Not losing big money becase im flat broke right now. Real urges will be tested on payday. Have my self excluwion meeting in two days on my payday. hopefully everything goes well.
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