I’ve had enough, realising I have a problem

Hi, new here.

Came here because I realised my gambling has got worse.

How it started

I thought slots looked cool and thought I would give it a go. Never spent too much money back then and it would be every month or possibly never. Fast forward a few years, I got my first job and took that opportunity to gamble just a little more but still never too much. 

However this is where is starts to go wrong

I lost my job, and didn’t even get my full holiday pay from that company after they told me repeatedly I would get it all. I was angry that they lied to me. and thought gambling would make up the difference for what I should have got. I have been panicking about finances, and even though I have a new job. I still find it hard to stay away from online slots. Since I left my last job, I’ve lost money mainly because I had no job to go to. I get angry and upset that I have done that to myself. And often cry myself to sleep because I gamble late so that no one in my family knows. 

Honesly I have had enough, and I need to do something about it. I never thought I had a problem, but with the job loss (which I didn’t expect to lose) it has got considerably worse. I hate it and I’ve just tried to shut all these sites off by any means possible.

So yeah, I’m in a dark place at the moment, even with a new job now, it will still be a while before I get paid and I’m trying to look forward to the future as November is a big month for me.

I’m trying to be as open as possible about my gambling so I can be honest with myself, and I really don’t want to back to gambling now and trying to quit for good. 

-Chloe