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(@jayleo)
Posts: 4
Topic starter
 

So here I am. 6 months gamble free, woke up this morning to find a free bet email waiting in my inbox. 

After 3 hours gambling on just random rubbish from e sports to racing I came to my senses and withdrew my money. After all that I broke even this time. But before I've lost a few thousand , im still paying credit cards from previous gambling debts. 
 
I got furloughed when this pandemic started so have free time on my hands.

I'm really struggling with the fact that I've messed up today after 6 months clean. 

I feel so guilty and ashamed. 

 
Posted : 18th June 2020 8:47 pm
Si_mon
(@si_mon)
Posts: 136
 

Hello,

Sorry to hear you're struggling with your recent actions. I would urge you to register with GAMSTOP as that can be really effective at helping gamblers with online problems, I myself registered and barred myself for 5 years and that was over 2 years ago, I've not gambled online since.  The only other piece of advice I can share from personal experience is to tell close friends / family of the troubles you are experiencing, it's not a nice thing to do and can be quite humbling however you'll be surprised at the positive reactions and support you get from folk, also the problem is now in the open and that goes some way to starving the habit (which thrives on your own personal feelings / challenges). I'm now open with friends and family on it and it has really helped me and keeps me grounded (as does this site which I visit regularly to remind me what I am, an addict). Anyway that's me, you'll find loads of friendly support on here from folk who've all got their own stories and can share their wisdom. I wish you well.

Take Care

Si

 
Posted : 18th June 2020 10:06 pm
(@kevthekev40)
Posts: 414
 

Well my friend atleast you stopped and broken even get back on your bike and see it as a relapse that you got under control very fast as of now your gamble free again and just take one day at a time as that's all we can do and were only human and we make mistakes it's just try and make those feeling for gambling push them down as you've got the strength it really P****s me off when they send emails as I did it not long ago and lost nearly  £8000 in the space off an hour you can guess how I feel don't be feeling like me my friend 

 
Posted : 18th June 2020 10:18 pm
(@amzer)
Posts: 16
 

Everyone slips up. Let this be a reminder to why you quit in the first place. 

Take time to unsubscribe from any emails and keep on doing what you previously had been. 

Congrats on the 6 months 

 
Posted : 19th June 2020 2:39 am
(@takenafirststep)
Posts: 50
 

I had a similar situation at the start of lockdown I ended up In a profit but still felt pants about it and never forgot those feelings when I stuffed up majorly six months prior I have never been able to stop at a gain so I was proud of that but it drove me to ensure all stops in place to prevent gambling I've had a bank account for a few months which blocks gambling transactions so finally getting around to setting everything up for that and have block on gamstop for 5 years

 
Posted : 19th June 2020 8:08 am
(@jayleo)
Posts: 4
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a major stumble today. Received some bad news earlier about my job so stupidly thought I'd have a flutter to make things better. To cut a long story short things didnt get better but alot worse. Just gambled the £170 pound I had put away over the past month from not betting. 

Litterally sitting here shaking from my latest experience, how stupid can I be. I don't honestly think I will ever be able to quit this. 

I've lost my will to carry on, I've reached rock bottom now. Not sure I'll be able to come back from the feeling of this latest failure. 

 
Posted : 19th July 2020 3:33 pm
Forum admin
(@forum-admin)
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Dear @jayleo

I am sorry to read your latest post and I hear your frustration.

You have experienced a couple of lapses recently but please do not feel that you are back at square one, you have achieved so much in the past it’s now about building on that.

We would very much like to support you to get back on track and I would urge you to contact our Advisers who will be able to help. You can come through on the netline or use our helpline number 0808 8020 133.

We are here 24 hours a day, 7 days a week.

Kind regards

Jo

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Posted : 19th July 2020 9:54 pm
(@roulettegotme)
Posts: 82
 

Hi Leo... I know the feeling about shaking and dissapointed. Been there. The only way for you to stop gambling is to self exclude from the site you are playing because like me, I also cannot trust myself. I self excluded and the best thing I’ve ever done... no more experiencing highs and lows of gambling. Things will get better my friend. Please self exclude now to avoid more loss. Would you like to lose another £170 tomorrow? The money is gone. The only way to make the money back is work hard and not gamble. Everyday is a winning moment not gambling. A lot of people here use GameStop. I don’t use it as I’m only addicted to one game on certain sites, hence I’ve self excluded so there is no way for me to go on and play. Please don’t dwell about it too much. £170 is nothing... listen to me... I’ve lost £2500 initially and then came on here... I wish I listened but I continued to gamble and now I’m down £3k. Trust me listen to goof advice on here and don’t dig yourself a deeper hole. Cheer up. Money is nothing, you can make that back but your mental health is more important. Say goodbye to that trembling and shaking feeling. You will never experience that again if you don’t gamble 

 
Posted : 20th July 2020 8:11 pm
(@jayleo)
Posts: 4
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Had a relapse on 10th August but am now 11 days gamble free. Feel quite good. Sitting here actually enjoying the football tonight without actually worrying how many shots/corners there is or who scores a goal and which minute it is. 

11 days and now feel refreshed. Actually like a weight has been lifted this time. I don't think the previous times I've quit I have actually wanted too, but this feels like a new begining. I'm not stupid enough to know that there won't be stumbles along the route but I feel I have the coping mechanisms to stay away from gambling. 

 
Posted : 21st August 2020 8:30 pm
(@craig724)
Posts: 63
 

Sorry to here about the minor bump in the road but well done on the 11 days, getting though that first week is the hardest part I think. I can really relate to the football comment, it’s nice to enjoy it rather than crying in another corner for each team etc, while gambling I got to the point were I hated football, because I was so fixated with crying bets in when they didn’t I hated footy as you can imagine 

 
Posted : 21st August 2020 9:12 pm
Lost_Found
(@lost_found)
Posts: 23
 

Hi Jayleo, I’m sorry to hear you’re feeling at rock bottom and some relapses. So many times I relapsed myself when I should have stopped but you are being very honest about it which is great.

My boyfriend was the only person that knew I gambled...sometimes he guessed I done it again...I guess I got better at masking my feelings after losing £5000 in one night...£10,000 in one night.

Perhaps if I was honest and saught the help I needed, the gambling would have more controlled and I wouldn’t have lost as much. So great to learn you have done 12 (?) days gamble free now.

 
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