This is something I never thought I would be doing.
Over the last 18 months gambling has become a huge part of my life. It started of as something fun but has gradually month by month ruined my life.
I spend my months chasing my losses, borrowing more, gambling more and losing more.
I finally said enough was enough two months ago and I got my finances in place and stopped gambling.
But today I received my payslip and a nice bonus for Christmas... I don't know what came over me but I decided to bet again. I lost 2.5k and ended up borrowing more which you guessed I lost. I've now got to get through the next 30 days with no money and a months worth of bills to pay.
I honestly have no idea what came over me today and I feel sick inside that I allowed myself to do this. Putting myself back into a state of depression and ruining my life again.
Well done on taking the first step eric, its a horrible feeling to lose everything but one that we all seem forget after awhile untill we do it again, the best thing is writing it down on here so you can keep coming back and reminding yourself. Also helpful reading other peoples stories and realising how similar we all are. I would give the helpline a ring now and get some advice on different types of blocks you can put in place and think about if you could mybe hand over control of your finances for awhile. Good luck hope you can beat this!
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