so my names Kyle.
As the title states I went 378 days gamble free... until now.. 5 am in the morning, just finished my "session" and I'm down over 5 grand, (everything I've worked for the last year).
i already suffer with depression but this just makes me feel like I'm completely back to square one & the last year has been for absolutely nothing.. in the morning I have to own up to what I have done to my parents and I now have a credit card bill to pay which I cannot afford to.
I lost my job last week too due to being no work so that's not convenient either.
I don't want people to feel sorry for me, I just need to vent at my stupid mistake while I'm feeling this way.
I think my underlying problem comes from my break up.. I'm not happy in myself which in turn makes me seek happiness in gambling, during my relationship I didn't gamble at all (2 years) other then that I've spent the last 10 years since the age of 15 non stop gambling. I'm probably down about 40k total, almost 26 with absolutely nothing to show for it.
Hi Kyle it's good you've come here to seek support. Do you have any help with your depression? If not maybe see your gp. Losing your job is probably a trigger. Call gamcare and talk to someone if you can. From here it's how you deal with this. You did 378 days and you can do that again. Just for today.
Hello Kyle
I am sorry to hear that you are feeling so down about your recent relapse.
Its understandable that you feel the need to vent at the moment and its nice to know that you felt you could use the forum for some support.
Your relationship breakup and recent job loss has been a difficult time for you and you turned to gambling. Please do not suffer alone in silence, call the freephone helpline on 0808 8020 133 and speak to one of our advisers who can offer you further support.
It's important that you contact your GP and discuss your depression and feeling suicidal as soon as possible. You have managed to achieve 378 days which is something to still be proud of and know that you can still go on from here.
You can also call the Samaritans 24 hour helpline on 116 123 https://www.samaritans.org/how-we-can-help-you/contact-us?gclid=EAIaIQobChMIvdyO36vm2AIVh5PtCh2NOwuLEAAYAiAAEgIn_vD_BwE
Gamcare can also offer you free counselling sessions, so please do consider making the call today for some additional help. http://www.gamcare.org.uk/support-and-counselling
For support with your debts you can contact a debt agency and speak to one of the advisers https://www.stepchange.org/
Take care
Cade
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Breaks my heart reading this . You did brilliant to give up all that time pal but you've got to do it all over again now . It'll be a long road but you've done it before so you can again. Stay strong pal
You ok?
Johnnyboychap wrote: Breaks my heart reading this . You did brilliant to give up all that time pal but you've got to do it all over again now . It'll be a long road but you've done it before so you can again. Stay strong pal
Cheers mate.. spent the best part of the last few days just sleeping, not really facing reality, I feel less emotionally unstable about the whole scenario now but it obviously still sucks.. can't even afford to eat at the moment. Then going to be broke all next month but it's my own fault.
Know how you feel i lost everything two days ago finding it difficult but the same as you Iv just slept and tried to forget it. It's going to be a long road but you've done it once stay positive all I keep telling myself is ill get it all back one day but it's going to be through hard work not gambling where there is a risk. All the best
Hi Kyle,Im currently in the the sickening stage after losing everything I worked for in the past 2 year in one night too. The feeling you have will get better over the days so it’s important you have the support over this period - please speak to your GP.going forward just remember that you have time on your side and are still young. It’s hard to forget about the losses and to be honest I’m finding it really difficult but put it down to a really expensive lesson and it won’t be a waste. You will have the opportunity to earn all that back so focus on what you can do positively. Can your parents help with finances so you can focus on getting better and finding a new job?
you have done something that is very difficult - over a year gamble free so have proved you are strong enough. Reading other posts, relapsed do happen, and you are naturally going to beat your self up about it...but remember you have successes before and will do again. I’ve not had that long gamble free but you’ve given me a target and day 1 started yesterday- so thank you.
good luck and keep posting
How’s it going Kyle?
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