Hey there I’ve been gambling for around 10 years. It wasn’t a problem as such untill a few years back it became excessive and I almost lost everything I started to get help and did attend ga a few times out a blocker on my phone and for a few months things were okay but now I’ve recently got a new phone and well let’s just say I’ve fallen back into the trap. Telling the people who love me lies again and hiding things behind peoples back. The anxiety is just taking over again and iknow I need help I just feel lost and I don’t know what to do.
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I'm so sorry to here this callum. I can relate, I've admitted all and stopped only to go back and start the gambling, lying and secrets again. How are you feeling today?
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I can relate to this it’s very hard for me to write this or admit I have a problem but I do I lie spend so much some times I don’t even know where it’s from I’m lost I have no friends  I have a wife who has health problems and depression I’m effective by this and I’m not sure where to goÂ
Hey thanks for the reply yeah am the worst/ best  at telling lies tbh and not feeling good today as usual lending money from A B C and now I can’t pay it back so getting grieve from people about money. It’s like Iknow what I should do but I just can’t and then other people think I’ve chose not to pay the bills or that.Â
Yeah totally although I’d rather that cost wasn’t my girlfriend and unborn child that is due in 2 months. It’s like when am gambling reality doesn’t exist Iknow that’s so selfish but that’s what it does to me.
Hi Callum
I can tell you from my experience the life without gambling is far better than the life consumed by it. I was a 14 year gambling addict, I’ve been clean for just over 4 years, has it been a struggle? d**n right it has.  It is one of the hardest things to stop, weaning off doesn’t help because you are still partaking, it’s cold turkey or no turkey unfortunately.  I had severe trouble with my withdrawal symptoms because all I knew was gambling and that hole suddenly being there was terrible, I was in debt that I couldn’t see any end to, I had barely £10 a week to get by on after bills and debts paid up.  You mentioned you have a child on the way, my fiancée fell pregnant shortly after I admitted addiction and along with my little girl I knew their lives were enough to fight this for.  You got this mate, you can do it, maybe you’ve never been told that.  Gambling is a terrible thing to be addicted to but if you want it out of your life bad enough you can win the fight.
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