A few weeks ago, I had a huge loss - my first in years after a period of very, very sporadic and selective betting throughout which I'd clawed back a sizeable portion of money I'd lost - and since then it's been eating me up.
I had no idea gambling could make me feel as low as I do right now. Every minute of every day, all I can think about is this loss. It has completely drained my happiness. I cannot comprehend what's happened, and I genuinely don't know how to move past this. I thought I had moved on from this period of my life. The only time I've ever felt worse than this was when I had a major depressive episode that lasted around six weeks - anyone who's experienced this will know it is complete mental torture, and it was unbearable at times, but I can look back on that time with a sense of pride that I had the strength to get through it, knowing that it wasn't something that was my fault. In this case, however, this is something that is my fault, and the sense of guilt and shame is overwhelming.
I guess I'm looking for advice - for those of you who have been in a similar situation, how did you get through it? Any words of advice would be much appreciated. Many thanks.
cd3429,
I have no advice, just support...You beat depression & although you say this is your fault, it is still an illness of the mind & you can beat this too!
Please call Gamcare for some proper advice...You can get through this - ODAAT
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