I know I have a gambling problem, its what I have always turned to when I am low or not feeling In a great place.
I put everything in place to stop / control my gambling, I'm on the gamban programme, I've previously worked alongside Gamcare doing interviews on mobile betting when it was first really taking off.
However I still 'Gamble' every day, my current partner made an account (at my request) in her name that she has full control of, if I do want a bet then I have to send her the money for her to deposit for me etc.
Everyday I go on that app and use the "free spin" if I do happen to win anything I'll play about with it normally until its gone, always pence rarely pounds. If I do ever deposit I then have to explain why I'd like a bet that day.
I believe this works for me as I still have option to have a bet but very rarely do I actually have the temptation which I believe is because I don't want to answer to anyone.
This has made me think the last few days am I only in control because I'm not in control, what would happen if I was allowed back online, yes I still have the option to go to the shops but I never do, what would I be like though if I was back in control with it at my fingertips? Would I then blow everything again.
We all have ways and means of trying to keep gambling under control or better yet to fully stop, it's about finding what works for ourselves, just wonder if situations change then how would we react? Would I just go back to my former self or would the things I have learned over the years come to the front and stop me from going back that way.
Just some random bit of midweek thinking and rambling for a Wednesday.
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All the best everyone
I don't gamble online as it's really is a computer deciding if you win 30000 folk all over the world can be playing the same game.
I tried it for a few months.found myself thinking this is so manipulated and computer decides who wins.
so I blocked myself from all online sites cos I know of the computer manipulation that exits.imo I'm at the stage where I want give up land based gambling.arcades.
at the end of the day there are other things in life that are better than gambling.
you are over analysing things.take a step back .things aren't as complicated as they seems.im like you.i look for answers to just about anything. sometimes.you don't need to.
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