Day one again

Hey pal today is also my day one again I got paid on Friday and lost it all again why I do it each month I don’t know I’ve just been severely submerged in gambling for years now and it finally came to a head a few months back. Going  6 months gamble free is an awesome achievement and you know you can do it. I guess am just going to take it a day at a time and see what happens 

@callumd2020 yeah i have no idea why we do it , or why i do it, even if i win big it's not enough , i've won £1500 but a few dates later it has swung from +£1500 to to a minus. On day 2 now , just need to keep busy this week and the 4 day bank holiday.

@pbuxton1982 yeah I’m the same I have this crazy idea in my head that I can use my wages to gamble and win enough to pay my debt and monthly bills and still have my wages. I’ve tried it for years now and needless to say there’s some bills and loan repayments I haven’t paid for months I put a blocker on my iPhone yesterday and today is also my day 2 j have woke up struggling this morning so am trying to stay on this and talk to as many people as I can to keep me busy and help me understand I’m not alone

@callumd2020 Coming on here last time got me through it or well to 6 months, i'm feeling more confident today that i will not gamble, i need to get stubborn and the more time that passes the more i don't want to break the progress. I wish i never had ever put a bet on back in 2006 from there my life went to s**t.

@pbuxton1982 the longest I haven’t gambled had been maybe 2 weeks but that’s because I didn’t have money and even then I still look at it and log in to my account and looked at scores and stuff then when pay day comes it’s like I get my fix but I have no reset button if I lose the first 500 al deposit more and more and before I know it am driving home from work on payday with nothing I’m so close to losing everything that I don’t even realise it and all the people and family that’s helped me in the past I keep letting down time and time again and im just sick of it now feeling worried and anxious all the time while debt I should be paying is just stacking up 

@callumd2020 Its an awful addiction and the worse thing you can do is actually win, i normally would deposit 100 go straight to blackjack , see if i can double up , loose and re deposit, trying to make a pot to have some spins on the slots and then on to sport, writing this makes me think how stupid, i guess its something in us that just wants the buzz the anexity it's disgusting really. 

Have you spoken to stepchange or payplan regarding your debts , it could help you finacially and maybe one less worry.

@pbuxton1982 - I’m also starting day one again today, good luck and well done for coming here to keep busy!

 You are not alone and can beat this, stay strong xo 

Hi

Being gamble free is a very healthy thing.

In wanting to stop gambling was it a need to do thing or a want to do thing.

Understanding why we gambled is important, was it  pains, fears frustrations, loneliness and or boredom.

Having lost of time on your hands is healthy if you have plans of things to do.

To understand your needs your wants and your goals.

Writing them down is us being accountable to our self.

Money will not resolve my problems, money will nto ehal my pains.

I watch tv when I need to relax.

Writing this down is healthy.

And keeping a diary and occupy my time also is very healthy..

Love and peace to every one

Dave L

AKA Dave of Beckenham UK

@haystack0915 Thank you, yeah day 3 now , just need to keep going and keep busy as i can.

Hi 

I have been a week off my accounts (not through choice, no funds etc), however today is payday and even though I have self excluded and blocked all my accounts, knowing I have money sitting there is very difficult.

My partner found out about my debts and gambling problem (3 and a half years worth), she says she will support me but I feel there is still a massive barrier.

Has anyone got any ideas on how to approach the situation? I feel lost on who to turn to. My family don't know and I don't know how to tell them.

Sorry for the ramble.