Don't stop until I lose everything

Hi, this is my first time looking for any type of help at all in relation to my gambling.

I wouldn't say I was a compulsive gambler, but I would say that I'm an addict.

My main vice is Online Roulette -I can go days, weeks, even months without thinking about going to an online casino (it helps that I've excuded myself from most of the sites) but I always seem to end up signing up for another an playing online roulette.

I've lost Thousands of pounds over the years oing this, however I'd say most of the time I am almost always "up" at some point, but I guess the greed sets in and I set myself a target and promise that if I hit that target then I'll withdraw and call it a night....hardly ever happens!

I'll just keep doubling up on losses, going into 3 figure sums each time until all the money is gone.

I also have to say that "Pending Withdrawl" function is my worst enemy, for example I cashed out about 600 up tonight, but then thought I'd try to win just a little more and stupidly lost not only all the winnings but half my stake as well! 🙁

I HATE MYSELF FOR BEING LIKE THIS.

I now have a beautiful baby daughter who is 2 1/2 years old, I promised myself I would'nt gamble anymore when she came but I've broken that promise several times and P***** away money that I could have spent on her or my wife.

The worst case was when I had been drinking and gambling one night about 5 years ago and P***** away all the money in our joint account and my wife and I had to cancel our summer holiday. I couldn't sleep that night and the guilt still lingers. My wife is being punished for my mistakes and theoreticaly it's half her money I'm losing each time.

I dont feel any urge to go to "real" casinos or bookies, but I NEED to get away from the ease and convenience of online gambling! - I think it's because it seems like a computer game and the money when you're laying it on the line doesn't seem real...

Sorry for the ramble but this is the 1st time I've ever wrote any of this down or told it to anybody....nobody knows the extent of my issues. I've always managed to cover my tracks as my wife is so trusting of me looking after our financial affairs, and so far I've managed to ensure that all bills are paid but we have minimal spending cash because of me. She, and my baby girl dont deserve that.