Hi all
Well, today is day 80 out of 13 years. The last couple of days have been hell on earth. I've been having cravings here and there, I've resisted. However the last couple of days I feel like I've hit a wall. I feel really down and depressed. Im sat thinking about why I feel so down and it feels like a grieving process I'm experiencing. Grieving for the life I could of had, grieving about the life I have now, worried about how things will turn out in future. I am medicated for anxiety. But I just feel so..... Meh....please tell me the depths of despair and muddy water will turn into crystal blue soon. I use to be so happy, life and soul of the party. Now I feel I'm a shadow of my former self.
Sorry for rambling 😍 xxx
Don't feel sorry for rambling, I got urges after 7 months and caved in on em only to come back stronger. Putting barriers in place really helps and stops you from doing some things stupid and gambling again.
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Take a few deep breaths and think about how much better off you are if you didn't stop for 80 days would be my thinking .
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Just for today I will not gamble, take it one day at a timeÂ
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I am sorry to hear your mental health is not at its best, but I suppose it's part and parcel of stopping after such a long time with gambling addiction. But, you have stopped for 80 days, that is some achievement. Give yourself some credit for this, you are stronger than you think.
I know that everyday is a battle, and urges are always there, but, without realising we get little stronger everyday.
I have rediscovered my passion for reading, it takes my mind away. If you have a passion for something good, that might help your mental health.
Keep going, you'll get there.
ErgosÂ
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