fellow gambler

Thanks Kim. Lovely words. Do you want to share your story with us or are you happy to be a casual observer for now?

Hi £50

Thanks but im quite happy to observe.......

would like to say that your an inspiration to all..

Keep on doing what you do

kim xx

Kim

I get the feeling that there are a lot of people who 'just observe' and I hope they continue to visit the site and get as much out of it as I do.

I'd like to inspire people, but I can assure you that I'm no different to anyone else - I've one managed to stop for 6 weeks so have a long way to go yet!

Hi Kim, welcome onboard, I also saw this poem lately in a GA magazine, it's very very true.

My instincts are the same as £50 on black.

Kim, there is no shame in sharing your story, I think you (and the many other observers) on the site will take some identification from reading other people stories. Once you share that story either with another, on a forum, in a room it's a weight of your mind and it is the beginning of true recovery from this most difficult of illnesses.

Everyone on here is here for the same reason, because they think or know they have a gambling problem.

I hope just now you're getting hope and strength from other messages and once you're ready you will start to contribute.

Partaking in this forum is now a part of my daily medicine in my non gambling life. 392 days now free from gambling, but only 1 day away from the hurt and turmoil again.

Take care

Compulsive Gambler

Hi Guys,

Thankyou both for your kind words.

I have been coming here since day 1

Reading the posts and contributing

a little.

My STORY...........

Its kind of difficult to know where to start, and probably difficult for most to understand,

so for now, and just for now i will refrain from sharing.

I would like to say that the support here is FANTASTIC, keep doing what you do guys.

Take Care

Stay Strong

Kim xx

Hi Kim totally your choice.

You'll share when you're ready and that's totally fine. Chances are of course if it's gambling related which I'm sure it is then we'll understand just fine, my experiences of the many compulsive gamblers stories I've heard is same s**t different bucket.

Hope you're doing well and if you get strength from reading and contributing then this forum is doing exactly what the GamCare guys intend it to do.

Take care, good weekend.

Compulsive Gambler

COMPULSIVEGAMBLER I HAVE ONE QUESTION FOR U APART FROM THE OBVIOUS ABOUT WHAT A NASTY VICIOUS ADDICTION GAMBLING IS . HOW HAVE U MANAGED TO SURPRESSING THE URGES THAT U MUST HAVE HAD IN THE LAST YEAR? ED

Hello Kim,

Had a ball talking to you today, Andrew has done another good thing I think, sorry I didn't have much time to chat. My flat mate doesn't know, I've never told her about my gambling problem so it was a little hard to chat when I normally talk to her in the mornings before she goes to work.

But it was fun!! Hope you like the drawing. 🙂 I'm a big cat fan so it seemed appropriate..

Hope you have a good sleep look forward to chatting on Friday or here in the forum.

"Friendship is a strong and habitual inclination in two persons to promote the good and happiness of one another."

Eustace Budgell

Take care, keep warm, stay strong & keep smiling.

Hi roger,

Yes i enjoyed talking with everyone too.

I LOVE the picture, thats one heck of a talent you have there my friend.

Another cold day here in blighty but it is sunny at least... anyway been having a scive this morning so best get to work...(groan groan)

Catch you soon

Take Care

Stay strong

Kim xx

Hi Kim,

Glad you like the picture Andrew has asked me to post the full size version, but I'll have to ask him how to do it and I'll post it so you can all see it. Another Hot day in Aus it was 30c yesterday and summer hasn't even started yet. Sigh it's going to be very hot this year, lucky I have air conditioning! I had a scive the other day too, makes you feel better when you get a break, love that word reminds me of Darlo.

You shall sorry I can't chat today have to work, 🙁 but I'll be at the next one with bells on.

Take care, keep strong take it a day at a time.

Roger

"COMPULSIVEGAMBLER I HAVE ONE QUESTION FOR U APART FROM THE OBVIOUS ABOUT WHAT A NASTY VICIOUS ADDICTION GAMBLING IS . HOW HAVE U MANAGED TO SURPRESSING THE URGES THAT U MUST HAVE HAD IN THE LAST YEAR? ED"

Hi Ed, sorry it's taken some time to answer your question, I've been offline a fair amount the last week.

To be honest I've not really had any urges as such. When I finally admitted defeat I was totally beat and needed help. I got that help from Gamblers Anonymous, people exactly like me, who knew me better than my partner.

I had no real urges to bet since walking in the door, although I had some real life like dreams. When these happened to me I knew I could pick up the phone and speak to a GA member and did this on a couple of occasions.

Within a couple of weeks in GA I really seen the benefits of non gambling, I accepted Step 1 that my I was powerless over gambling and my life had become unmanageable.

By going to 2 meetings a week and speaking to GA members on the phone in between, my strength grew and a day at a time (just over 14 months now) I've not placed a single bet.

What's important for me to remember though, is I know there's another bet in me and I've got to keep doing the right things to keep my head straight. I keep going to 2 meetings a week, sometimes 3 and I speak to people in between. Then of course I come on here and share my experiences with other in the hope it may help them.

Hope that answers it Ed.

Compulsive Gambler

Hi...

I don't know which room i should be posting this in but what the heck. I'll try.

I'm 20 years old, I am a 3rd year university student, who probably only ever earned a total of ВЈ1300 in all my life, and I have officially blown £7000.

The strange thing is, I never got into gambling because I needed money, considering I managed to find the ВЈ7000 to gamble with, and I am only ВЈ1500 overdrawn, I could proabably hhave £5000 sitting in account nicely, doing absolutely watever I want with it and enjoyin myself. Instead i blew it all.

I have never been so down, and I am so annoyed with myself. On the outside I am this happy guy, that everyone likes. I have ots of friends.. I have fun, im a joker, everyone likes me. But the side nobody knows of is me who spent a few months in a casino last year, and now online gambling.

I just dont understand myself.. I never needed money. I could buy anything I wanted really. Cause I was getting ВЈ3000 a year student loan, but my parents were paying everything for me at uni. Then I had my own £2000 in an account. If i wanted something, I could ask my mum probably and get it. Or I'd just get my card and pay for it.

I used to do alot of football betting when I was younger, but never serious money. I loved it, the thrill of winning, even ВЈ30, tho I didn't need it. When I got to my first year at uni, I really didnt gamble at all. Apart from the odd flutter here or there, on football, I was so caught up in the excitement of Uni, I just never really did it. During my second year I had a girlfriend, and one day we had a big argument and I couldnt sleep. I had always been fascinated by going to a casino and winning big. That night I just got up out of bed, and went to see were there was one. I found it, and went in. At the time, I had to wait the 24 hrs, but even that didnt stop me. I came back the next day, and that started me off on a serious 3 weeks of blowing money. The moment I walked in the first time, I won ВЈ400 instantly, usually, I'd be so chuffed, that thrill, being able to say, ya i won this much, was perfect, but it took me half an hour on the roulette table, pure luck. I couldnt leave that early, so I went to the black jack table. and it all went downhill from there. I knew I had a bit of money in my account, so after losing wat i came with, I withdrew a bit, then a bit more, then a bit more. By the end of the first night I was down ВЈ300. The next 3 weeks I was chasing that money back. I'd stay out till 3 or 4 am ever night I'd miss lectures the next day. Cause i couldnt wake up and I was upset. I couldnt concentrate. In the end I lost £2500. I stopped. I knew i did wrong. I went home for a weekend to visit my family. I immediately confessed to my dad and brother. Obviously that made me think and try and stop and forget about it. Accept the loss,, stop chasing money like my dad said and get on with my life.

The last few months at uni I forgot about it and studied.

Come the summer, I got myself a job. To earn the money back. Thinking ok, I am in control of myself, I can play abit of online poker, cause I am good at that. I started, and cause i was trying to make money quick, I lost my first ВЈ100. Knowing I was gonna get my first paycheck soon of ВЈ500, I put more money into the poker, again and again, each time convinced my luck is about. In one night I blew some ВЈ750. I tried stopping again. I needed to get out of my overdraft, so told my mum I nedeed some money to cover some uni costs on my credit card. She gave me the money, and it got me out of the over draft. I kept doing this again and again over the next few months. Playin more and more poker. By the end of the summer I had lost another £2500.

I just wished i would have learnt to enjoy my money instead of wasting it in 7 hours every nite. The followin day after a long nite, online, I would feel terrible. Wouldnt really speak to anyone and just go and spend time with my girlfriend.

At the end of the summer I said to myself that is it. No more. I can't afford it. I am in my overdraft, I have no more money left. All the cash my mum gave me from time to time, to enoy myself, all the cheques she wrote out to me thinking she was covering some fees I was paying (about£500 in total), I couldnt keep that up. It wasnt fair on them.

As soon as I went back to university and was alone again, now no longer with my girlfriend, again I started thinkin about makin that money back. I had to . I convinced myself. Once again I started going online, to online casinos. The worst is at one point I made ВЈ1000 back, and had a bit of breathing space, and said ok fine. Brilliant Ihave a bit of money. Im ok. Ill stop here. One night I convinced my flat mate to come for a quiet evenin at the casino, He'd never been so I would show him around. I wantd to just spend ВЈ50. By the end of the night, I had blown ВЈ400 in 2 hours. I was so incensed that I came back home, and went to a casino to an online casino to wiin it back. The £1000 I had made, was gone, in 2 hours.

Tonght I just spent ВЈ450. And thats it I have no more money left. I dont know how I will pay my last £400. I am almost overdrawn to my limit.

I don't know what the hell is wrong with my life to have done all this. In total I have spent £7000.

Probably since my early teens, its ВЈ8000 in total. I used to love fruit machines and football betting. But now I can't do this anymore. I could be sitting on £5000 in my account, living the life at uni that most dream of. Now I have nothing. I am so stupid. But why.

I just don't want to do it anymore. Its ruined my studies, my life, I am so stressed all the time. I am hiding the truth inside me all the time. My smiles are fake.

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