As it says in the title, I just cannot be bothered anymore. I’ve had a stupid couple of days after few weeks of no gambling and had a drink last night with some serious thoughts of just ending it.
It is mad to think someone so young is having these thoughts due to gambling, for me it’s not all about the money, of course this plays a huge part in the feelings but the fact I have told myself numerous times how I am going to change but just cant
500 quid gone and more mental health issues. I am 22 and have got a debt of 2.5k, I know compared to others it’s not a huge amount but for someone my age not earning a huge amount and living on my own it’s a lot of money.
I don’t know why I do it to myself, I have had the same pattern for months now. Go a couple of weeks without gambling feel great then binge for a few days and hate myself. I don’t know where to turn, can’t get accepted for any credit as my credit score is awful, can’t loan off family as the embarrassment is too much. Just feel lost in life.
I am going to look at attending a ga meeting. It’s crazy for me even to say that as a year ago I had no debt and would gamble on the football here and there but now the slots has really got me.
Don’t really know the purpose of this post, prob looking for sympathy from others in my situation but that is not going to get us anywhere.
just want some advice really
cheers
Alright mate its not easy my story is simaliar to you can go months without gambling then bang lose a month's wages in a night,I'm afraid there's no easy answer only you can change its not easy but it can be done,you could maybe try ga meetings in definitely helped me but its not for everybody but don't worry about the past mate it's gone look to the future and you will pay off your debts quicker than you think keep your chin up and good luck mate
Sorry for hear about the thoughts you have been going through, yes this addicted is horrible but there is light at the end of the tunnel and a potential life gamble free beyond 3-4 weeks. You said you were thinking of going to a GA physical meeting And I Must stress that is a fantastic idea which should get you away from you’re computer and back some what in the real world. Don’t be scared to go to the GA meeting/s I went about 5 years ago and my life has improved massively. Of course I have had replases but they have been my hurdles during my road to recovery.
as compulsive gamblers like ourselves dark thoughts do come from time to time due to the pain we have or are putting ourselves through. At the end of the day there is another day to rebuild a better life and relationships and make ourselves better individuals as we move away from gambling.
I hope you attend you’re meeting and just for today I will not gamble
dave101
Dear @craz,
Well done on taking the step to come here today. Sorry to hear about your thoughts and how your gambling has impacted you.
I hope you find strength, hope and encouragement here.
It is a good step you are looking at attending a GA meeting. There are also blocks such as self exclusions and blocking software you can put in place to restrict your access to gambling and gives you the chance to focus other aspects of your recovery. You mentioned some concerns around your debts and credit score being affected. This is something that with time you can tackle and regain control of. Here are some contact details of debt advice charities that can offer practical advice about your debts:
National Debtline – 0808 808 4000, www.nationaldebtline.org
StepChange – 0800 138 1111, www.stepchange.org
Problem gambling unfortunately can affect your mental health. I would encourage you contact your GP about your mental health wellbeing for emotional support.
Can I suggest you give our helpline a call? We are open 24/7 You can call us on our freephone 0808 8020 133 or on our Livechat to discuss your gambling 1:1 with an advisor and we can even get you referred for some support.
Take care
Vanessa
Forum Admin
I have been where you are. I am 28 today and cried because I will be 30 soon and I wasted my 20s the best years of my life being miserable every day. And depressed, contemplating suicide daily. I genuinely thought everyday forever would be like that. Until one day it wasn’t. I am still a gambling addict and always will be. I stress like hell about debt I have accumulated. But i have forced myself to find happiness in the smallest of things every day. You’d be surprised how silly things like taking your head out of your phone away from the betting website for 30 secs and looking at the world helps. Money will always be an issue. Don’t waste your best days like me and it’s cliche. But tell one person you trust how you feel. It’s like a tonne of bricks being lifted from you. Good luck and stay strong
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