Matched Betting story

Hello, I am 23, and this is my first post here. First of all I want to describe myself and then tell about the purpose of this post. The first thing that comes to my mind when I think about myself is being a perfectionist and I don't say it is an advantage. This is a typical thing of many many people to be a perfectionist. I finished university and have quite a nice job. It's some kind of technician position so it's not a high level one but enough for me. I should be trying to get better as normally i want to be perfect and best in everything but In this case I don't really want to develop in this field of study. In the future I want to take care of properties, agency, renting etc.. I am doing some steps to achieve that but having in mind how much time I "lost" (very bad thinking) to study what i studied I get frustrated and want to find a quick way to make it faster. You already know a little about me so you can imagine me and I hope that many of you find yourself similar to me because the purpose of this post is to show the story of a person who think can be best and win with casinos. People like I, normally never post in forums cause they think they don't need help etc.. For those of you who don't know what is matched betting: briefly saying it is obtaining profit from promotions offered from bookmakers and casinos. Now is the time for the actual story. How happy I was when at the beginning of 2018 my friend mentioned me something about matched betting. Straight away I noticed it can be a proper second source of income. Of course I wanted to get this opportunity and become an expert in it. The good thing is that before I started I read a lot of good advices and I created another bank account and I totally separated this money from the one I earn in a normal job. I also made a proper spreadsheet where I was noting every single one penny. As I started in a good time (some festivals) I earned £*** in just a month and this is the end of good news. Now, after 7 months my profit from matched betting is still same: £***. You will say it is not bad then cause I don't have debts but it was the worst 7 months of my life and only I know how much I suffered from gambling addiction. I remember when at the beginning I was saying to my girlfriend about that and I told her that I need to be careful because i am dealing with casinos and no-one who got addicted could say in the beginning that he would get. I felt so proud of my words that made me someone better of other people. I felt like I am the only one who understand it. I started with sports offers from which i never got addicted. I also found 2 friends who gave me their accounts so it helped me earning faster and in the end it helped me finish with still being in profit... To manage all of that I was spending about 50 hours a week ! 50 hours that normally I was spending for the gym, walking, cooking (health diet) and even some meditating. When I noticed casino can bring much more profit I started doing it. My bankroll was even £*** In some point (remember how much time I was spending) but then it started to get worse... first was roulette. I started gambling without doing any promotion. There are a lot of "methods" saying you can basically earn money just if you have some bankroll. I was starting with £*** stake on 3rd part of table and increasing stake when looking to 2, 3, 4, and so on... of course unfortunately!!!! I won at the beginning like £***. So then next day I decided to play again and again. Some times I was winning of course but eventually I ended like £*** down. It was only money earned from matched betting but for me it was so much time lost... I noticed that my super ideal spreadsheet is basically showing only numbers even with sign of pounds next to them they seemed to be just numbers. I forgot that these numbers are basically real money that some people are struggling to get. I thought about what holiday I could go for or something if I just wasn't so greedy and want thinking about BIG plans (property business). At some moment I was thinking that roulette will finance my business.... I stopped gambling for few months then and was still just doing matched betting and spending lot of time on it. Luckily I never got addicted of sport and slots. I just always saw it pointless. During this time I could already make about £*** bankroll (so I say my loose is approximately £16 000). Unfortunately meanwhile i got addicted from blackjack and this lasts till now. I won many many times and was In a good run for example for 2 weeks. I always was playing with some low stakes and small progress. Most of the times I was strong enough not to worry about very very bad days when I lost just £*** comparing to £*** profit from previous day. But it comes just sometimes, this impulse when I was just increasing and increasing stakes. And the fact of losing every single round sometimes is just ridiculous. 5 times in a row same situation when I start with 19 or 20 and dealer with 6 or 7. Everyone will say it is such a perfect situation but then 5 times in a row dealer has 20 or 21 but always at least 1 more than me. I love mathematics and I can see how small probability it is. But instead of thinking that all of that is a bu****t I was getting angry and frustrated. So many times I lost like £*** In just an hour. I was promising myself so many times not to do it again, I changed approach as well. I don't collect this money for properties anymore, instead I am planning to buy a car worth like £*** that normally I would never buy (without matched betting). I also stopped doing that detailed spreadsheet. And you know that.. I still was losing and losing. You may say that at least I didn't get debts and you're right, it could be much much worse but still I lost like £*** that I was working very very hard for. This money earned from matched betting was more difficult for me to earn than money I get from my job. During these months with roulette and blackjack I lost my happiness, I lost my muscles and got fat. I didn't cook for a long time and haven't been to the gym neither. I didn't develop myself in any field of life but just went backward. I feel only uncertainty about the future cause this is what gambling is!!! Doesn't matter slots or blackjack, it is all uncertainty and I have to understand it, all of us have to. Do we want to build our future on the uncertain ground ? Now I want to give matched betting a last try. I will avoid any blackjack and roulette offer and just focus on small profits and will try to be happy with them. Maybe I will get the car I want to buy or maybe not. I need to be happy with what I have and not be greedy to get something quickly. I will treat matched betting as I used to before: as a job which is nothing but another hard work for which I can get some money. The biggest step however is to forget about all these looses and admit to them. I can't be chasing them anymore. Today will be my first day without blackjack and roulette and hopefully it will not change. Many times I was trying to find some information about that roulette and blackjack is a BIG lie. All these runs... sometimes you win 12 times in a row and then you lose 12 times in a row. It seems to be fair but when gambler wins he will not increase the stake but when he loose, of course he will.. and casinos do know it. Probability to lose 12 round in a row is theoretically 0.0002441406 but it happened to me sooo many times. Same with roulette. What do you think, you believe is JUST BLACKJACK as dealers always say or you believe something is wrong with this? Unfortunately on YouTube etc you can only find happy people winning big money but nothing about those losing. When you see this it is rather encouraging you to play again.