**** me it's back

We have all been there, I've won very large amounts, on numerous occasions. I had nothing but more debt to show for almost every single one of those big wins within a few weeks, sometimes days.

You are very much in dangerous friend, I hope you find your sanity and find it in you to stop before you find yourself in hell again. Best of luck.

Thanks for your reply. I can tell how this situation is potentially going to lead me to ruin. 3 strikes you're out. That's why I'm staying on here. My Betfilter ran out a few months ago but thought nothing of it and didn't gamble until the other night. I'm going to tell my mother tomorrow to put the blocker on 24/7 and use the betfilter expiry as an excuse "just to be safe". Hopefully that will kick me in the right direction, as again, I've stopped walking the high road and met the junction signposted "ruin" and "good life". You'd think with a pay rise of more than 100%, I'd pull my s**t together completely....

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If I had the words man...........Very helpful........... The sincerity in my post and you belittle it like that. Nice one mate.

Jimmyc I've in the past week done pretty much the same. Trying so hard to stop but can't seem to stop completely. I got lucky last week and gambled my way out of debt. Like you the winnings are screaming at me to be played with again and again and loses then begin to be chased and chased. It's one week to payday and I've 1k in my account. This time last month I was 1k in debt on credit cards and had a payday loan out on top of it. I'm determined not to go back to that and see this next week through at the very least with money in the bank for the first time on payday for a very long time.

I hope you can do the same. Quit while your ahead (sort of anyway) don't think any of us on here are ever 'ahead' when I think about the sums I've lost in the past.

Block this new account. (I opened two new accounts ffs, blocked them both tho 5 days ago). I don't think I can even open any new accounts now. I know there are loads of online bookies out there but I think I've literally used every single one I can think off and google for!)

good luck and check in again let me know how your doing

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Thanks for your helpful and comforting post mate. I really feel like I'm on a cliffhanger. I don't actually care if SOMEONE above thinks I'm talking s**t, I know exactly what I'm going through, and what I have been though, which lead me to come back to this site - For some reassurance, some support and to instill some self belief that I had. I KNOW EXACTLY WHERE IT IS GOING AS I HAVE BEEN THERE BEFORE.

As much as I am happy that I have stopped with a little in my pocket, I know that if I carry on it will dissolve and suddenly a few hundred up will turn into ten thousand down. I am here to stop before it's too late - Isn't that what this forum is about? Not belittling someone elses post?

I will be instructing my mother to put the blockers on 24/7 (and to be fair, they are really effective). Hopefully this will help me kick the phase that seems to have unexpectedly returned. I'm not two different people. I am me, and in the past year I have made a life of myself. I have come so far. So, so far. I am not going back, and, despite my posts a year ago, I really do know what this is all about. Posting on here will keep me from it. I mean, look at me now, I'm waffling for the cause. I'll take that over the spin of a roulette wheel. This forum really will keep me from it.

Out of interest, is there anybody on here who is near(ish) to Northampton? I would love to meet up and share stories. I think a real person in my life who is going through the motions could help us both....?

Joydivider wrote:

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If I had the words man...........Very helpful........... The sincerity in my post and you belittle it like that. Nice one mate.

Im not belittling anybody. I just dont think it is always helpful not to come in with a frank attitude. I dont think its helpful to post stories about how its ok that you were winning on a recovery website. It was all a bit I will try this again and look how good it was going for a while.

I know you ended it well but I feel there was no need for all that detail. I didnt mean to offend. Its good to get it out but I personally felt slightly disturbed that the gambling is ok (because I was up at one point) mentality was coming out a bit too much.

Post deleted if its not helping matters

i read your post and don't think you were belittling. It's important to point out that although we feel on top of the world and indestructible when we are winning that we just can't stop at this and eventually lose and self destruct. Your post highlighted this and I feel Jimmyc you already know this or you wouldn't be here and wouldn't be taking the steps you've taken already. Don't go back to place you went too last year and quit now before you do. I myself have decided not to go back to the place I was in this time last year which for me was my rock bottom. I've had my slips but I've not been as bad as I was and not caused as much trouble for myself as I used to, but I'll always have the potential to do that. As will you mate. Put it down to experience and move on in the position your in. A few quid better off than you were last week but remember your only ever one deposit away from feeling like you did last year buddy and you and I don't wanna rewind the clock back there. There are plenty on this forum who are at their rock bottom right now. I am lucky I have been at mine and come out the other side but I still have a long way to go to beating this.

Hey waiting for withdrawal's are a killer iv'e lost thousands apon thousands due to it, If your still waiting set your wager limit to one pound or loss limit. This will prevent you from gambling that money. At the end of day you've got to be strong and fight the urges by replacing them with subsitutes. All the best

Northampton have a GA meeting lots of people there to share your stories with

Hi Jimmyc - you're doing the right thing to stop now. A lapse is a lapse and you're right to recognise that after a win is a dangerous time. While it's hard not to talk about the specifics of gambling here, it is true that some people find a lot of detail, especially about wins, can be triggering, so just something to be aware of. Best wishes with your recovery Jimmy.

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i think the most painful memories are from throwing away huge wins. I have never kept a huge win. My second largest was a running streak, maybe won around 3 k over a month, which is a lot considering i earn about 1k a month. The month after i lost it all and another 1k. that is when i decided to self exclude (second time around) from that casino.

its good to leave on a win, but i think in some ways it is bad as that lingering buzz will stay with you and draw you back in. i hope it odesn't though

i am at the casino very infrequently now, but when i do go i tend to blow a big chunk of my cash.

fortunately i am doing okay right now, focusing on saving what cash i have

Well jimmyc - did you arrange the block?

I had a similar thing happen a few weeks ago... After big loses last year that literally made me contemplate suicide I decided to close all my online accounts. And as agreed with my girlfriend I would allow myself a ВЈ10 footall bet once a week only if I placed it in shop with cash and not that little piece of plastic that makes online "excessive" gambling far to easy. Anyway that was going well I placed a ВЈ10 weekend footy bet and wasn't bothered financially it mentally if I lost a tenner I got my 90 minute fix each weekend I did that for around 3 months no problem. Then about 3 or 4 weeks ago the "worst" thing happened.. I won ВЈ680 on a ВЈ10 accumulator. Since I won that it brought all the highs back I remembered why I gambled in the first place I didn't seem to bother remembering why I'd closed all my online accounts down and had limit myself to a tenner a week. Anyways long story short since that win I'm now atleast £1500 worse of than before it and have effectively blown my tax rebate before I've even got it! For most of us with gambling problems the wins only lead to bigger loses. In my opinion mate put a small deposit limit straight on the online account then as soon as you've got the money in your bank tell yourself you earned it with overtime at work etc then close/self exclude the betting account. Don't fall back into the addiction that brought u hear in the first place.