Day 6
My urges are getting stronger by the minute but the good news is I got no where to gamble as am self excluded from everywhere.
Also bit concern about my pay which hits my account tomorrow. I am trying to distract myself but nothing is working so far.
Also it is amazing how your mind comes up with ideas how to gamble.
But when I get paid, that's my weakest point my mind goes blank. My blocks are in place but am certen I will end up going somewhere were am not excluded from even at the moment I have an adrenalin rush to go and gamble even tow I have no money but tomorrow I will be much worse. Am thinking of my last lost but its not having much effect.
At this moment am like a J****E who wants a fix.
Has anyone felt like this or has anyone got any advice.
hi imran
My best advice to you would be instead of thinking about gambling tomorrow, think about Saturday. Think about waking up after you lost most/all of your wages on friday.
Think about how much this evil addiction wants to keep you in its clutches and how it wants your money so bad right now and can see that it is getting closer to it every minute.
Think about the remorse and the guilt you will have to endure once your fix is over.
Now think about the fact that you still have a choice now not to put yourself in this position. No matter how bad the urges are you do not have to give in to them. Get through this weekend and every weekend will get a little easier to cope with.
We cannot win because we cannot stop.
Linda
We have all been where you are Imran. It is so difficult not to give in to the urges. Blocks help but the addiction is so strong like you say you can't help thinking of ways round the fact you have self-excluded.
The bottom line is if you can't resist the urge you will find a way to gamble, whether it is tomorrow or another day.
You want to stop but you need to be able to live without a bet. You will accomplish this when you start to address why you gamble. Is it as an escape, to relieve stress or boredom, to feel like you are in action, some sort of combination?
Work that out and find other things to do and think about and deal with your demons.
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