Pretty much that.
Me and my wife just had a long discussion about my gambling.
I haven’t gambled in about 2 weeks now.
I havent really shared with her how I am feeling as she has her own mental health issues going on at the moment.
Over the past 2 weeks I’ve barely slept, I cry pretty much daily and feel guilt 90% of the time.
She has stayed with me because she is absolutely amazing but after our conversation this evening I’m now wondering why she does.
There’s no trust anymore, I almost made us miss a mortgage payment which has a direct effect on the kids and now I’m feeling even more guilty and hopeless than ever.
Please tell me it gets better?
How can I stop feeling like this?
@wool-step I can’t find any previous posts. Would you mind putting some details on here to see where you are in your addiction and what led to you and your wife talking about your gambling?
Chris.
I’m glad I’m not the only one to feel this way.
I came clean to my husband, a real sensible person and was the hardest thing I ever had to do.
He has been amazing but I cannot shift the guilt feeling, the dread I feel everyday. It’s so exhausting, probably even more so than the deceit / lying / double life I was doing before I told him.
I worry everyday that I’ve caused us to be in so much debt and now with the cost of living sky high.
Just wish I could turn back time.
I’m sure we’ll get there, lots of support here. Just need to keep talking about how you feel.
I just keep reminding myself that I didn’t choose this life, it’s an illness - it does help a little bit.
Take care,
Claire
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