Created an account on here just over 2 years ago when I'd lost pretty much all my savings and thought id reached rock bottom and was ready to change
2 years later I'm in the same rock bottom situation, have just got home from the bookies having blown the small amount of money I had left
I turned 30 last October and this triggered something within me and I started betting stupidly again, not my normal controlled small bet only on the big horse races, this got out of hand in the last 3 months and iv blown the money I'd managed to build up since my last episode.
I feel different this time, I was almost relieved when my last two big bets lost and that it was over.
Last time I didn't really want to stop, this time I feel like I not only want to stop I have absolutely zero interest in ever handing my money to a betting company again. That's what I was doing, they weren't taking my wages I was willfully handing them over.
Fortunately pretty much all of my outgoings for the month have been paid and my small overdraft will keep me going until payday
Days without gambling 0
The last 5 years of my life have been c**P because of gambling
By taking it one day at a time and just not placing a bet today everyday I will look back in 5 years time and be in a much better place both mentally and financially
In thar order, I want to actually start enjoying myself again. Instead of not going to sporting events or on holiday because I'm skint.
I feel a little clearer of mind already just having typed this out.
Woken up after a bad night's sleep
Not going to punish myself all day
Going to the cinema and not going to have a bet
Hi,
How has today been for you?
I stopped gambling after Friday’s monumental s**t storm, it’s been a long time coming.
I understand your situation completely & I hope today worked out alright for you & you are happy.
🙂
@notsolucky11 definitely not happy, stressed and depressed which is to be expected
Haven't had a bet though so the first small battle has been won
Now to win that battle again tomorrow
This is the easy stage though I find, it's 3 or 4 weeks time when the memory of how horrible it felt to hand the money away begins to fade
Just got to tell ourselves all we have to do is not bet today, forget the past and make the next right decision
I know what you mean about the first phase being easier than a few weeks in.
I just have to remember that even if I win, I lose. There is never going to be a time when I think “I’ll cash out now & walk away & everything is fixed”….because I physically won’t be able to do that. Even if it’s a substantial win… within a short space of time it’s all gone again.
My partner said last night I was saying ‘green, green, green!’ in my sleep!! (roulette)… and he crapped himself thinking for a minute that I was on a gambling site. I woke up this morning with that depressed, physically SICK feeling. Even though I didn’t gamble.
I think part of it is guilt. But it’s horrible.
I don’t want to go back to that chaos.
It never works out for gambling addicts who keep on gambling. Only way to get ahead is to stop permanently.
Hope you aren’t as unhappy today x
Forgot to say well done for not gambling yesterday! (and hopefully today!) ??
We just have to try to break the vicious cycle that gambling puts you in
One day at a time
Hey guys I was wondering how it's going with your addiction thanks
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