Hey,
So this is the first time I've opened up about my problem!!
I am 27 years old and have gambled since I was about 17!
At first it wasn't a problem but started to become one although the sums I was losing weren't big it didn't feel like much of a problem! Not so much now! The biggest problem I have is that I have a wife and 3 year old son! My gambling has caused me to have 2 occasions where I have had no option but to tell my wife & say that I would stop! Neither time did I get any help & although my intentions were 100% I slipped back into it, the biggest problem being trying to gamble my way out of the situations I get myself in!
So here we are now, in a hole again! I go away on Sunday on a stag do, which I arranged and took the money for! I wasn't able to pay for the hotel at the time songs the money sitting in my account for the past few months! I always thought I could replace this & used it for gambling! I'm now left a few days before we go without the money!
I recently got a new phone on contract and have decided to sell it, which will raise the money for the hotel but I don't want my wife to know so although it is the worst thing about being a CG I am going to have to lie to my wife and tell her I lost the phone & lie again in saying that the insurance won't cover it!
I feel I need to do this as if I tell her I'm pretty sure she will leave me & take my son! This will kill me! Iv broke down today for the first time in the toilets at work! I have had thoughts of ending my life keep creeping back into my mind!
I feel stuck between a rock and a hard place! I need help, I know this but if I open up I lose my family which will be the worst day of my life!
Hello Scottc123
Well done for posting your story on the forum. You will find a very supportive community here and people who understand how you feel so please keep reading and posting so we know how you are doing.
It seems like gambling is causing you alot of anxiety and stress and you talk of having thoughts of ending your life. We would urge you to get in contact with your GP and/or the Samaritans on free phone number 116 123 if these thoughts continue. You really don't need to be alone with this there is support available.
We also have a free phone helpline where you can talk to an adviser in confidence who will listen to your concerns and help you to decide on your next steps and help you to see that you have options available to you.Our advisers can also facilitate a referral for you to free one to one counselling in some parts of the country and also give you further information on other services and support in your area that may be helpful to you.
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