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Hi

I use to fear Saturdays once I started abstaining from Gambling.

Then one day my wife asked me how I was feeling.

I told her I was going through one of my emotional triggers fear and anxiety.

My wife told me to get my jacket on as we were going out.

Asked her where are we going she said we will know when we get there.

Well we found a bowling aley and played for a few hours.

And from that day onwards every Saturday we went ten bowling and I gave up my fears of Saturdays.

For me sitting around doing nothing was nto ehalthy for me.

In time I exchanged every unhealthy habits in to healthy habits.

Today I live for today, when I have a productive healthy day I know it.

In recvery I got to understand that there are talkers and walkers, who did I want to be.

Once you get really healthy you do not want or need to go back to very unhealthy habits.

Love and peace to every one

Dave L

AKA Dave of Beckenham

This is same as me I started of the odd 10 here and there now it can be anything of 100 upwards a day basically however much I have last week it was my full 1000 pay that went in 6 hours that so so scary last night it was my last 30 I got up 200 roughly and lost it all again before at the start I could play little get lucky and enjoy the win spend it on something nice now I've came to the realisation it's not even about the money it's about the feeling of hitting that bonus or those free spins and chasing till I hit another most times I don't then that's when it does become about the money because it's all gone and I have a house to run and food and bills needing taken care of it's so scary how playing online to me doesn't even feel like real money it's just number I hit until I log in to the online bank account and reality hits in I've blocked myself from playing with my bank a few times then reversed it I'm honestly shocked with the activity on my account they allow this they must have seen for example my monthly universal credit go in last week and within about 7 deposits 1000 was gone you would think they would step in eh not that I'm meaning it's there job to stop me from playing I NEED to sort this addiction but certainly a wake up call from them would have been helpful last week I really hope you get out of this horrid mess I hope we all do I have never bet until just over a year ago jeezo I've never even been in a bookies wouldn't know how to put an actual bet on 

You have been posting these threads month in month out for about a year

I will ask for the umpteenth time ....what do you want us to do ?

this is a recovery forum not a complain about your losses forum