Pinky I know exactly what you mean, except with me it's the online Slots, I used to love bingo and never had a problem controlling what I spent but then I discovered the Slots and well, here I am....years later, massive debts, low self esteem in fact NO self esteem & feelings that I should be punished rather than supported....I too have gone reasonable periods with no gambling but then the "itch" will appear from nowhere and before I know it I'm back in that spiral of losses & regrets.....
Blocks are in place as much as they can be....my biggest downfall is depositing with multiple credit cards...they're gone now, all cut up and binned and just to make sure I have rang the companies & requested tgat any gambling transactions in the future to be declined....I don't know the CVV number of any of them so will def not be able to go down that road again...
I still have my debit card, I live alone and have some serious health issues which result in me often being housebound so I rely on things like online food shopping & paying bills through online banking.....not having my debit card us not an option unfortunately but however I've (thankfully) even in the worst binge always honoured my direct debits for bills etc so now what I do is pay every bill & commitment that I owe immediately...any balance leftover I withdraw the cash ( cash is no problem as I have never gambled or had inclination to enter a bookies/ arcade/ casino etc.....all my problems are online Slots....I have k9 on my laptop....tried to download for my android tablet & phone but it doesn't seem to be available for android at moment? I have self excluded from every site I ever visited (and there were a lot of those) ....and of course....I have joined this site.....these may all be small steps but they're a start....I am more determined than I've ever been....actually maybe that should be ...I am more desperate than I have ever been so for now I will concentrate on one day at a time.....
Day 4 and feeling strong.....
M x
We CAN and We WILL
Lethe, great idea. I transfer money into 2 savings accounts every month that I can't access.
Pinky, do you know your NEVER going to win big on online bingo? Why is it always the same names on those sites winning? Are they bots?
Anyway guys I went to wetherspoons today for lunch with my ex.
We sat down, ordered, enjoyed our food and LEFT.
Was i itching? Hell yes.
Did I even give them a second glance on passing? NO.
So pleased with myself.
All because I have the sheer will to say NO and because of the support and the bond I have here.
I'm not going back to day 1.
And whoever reads this, mix, Lethe, SC, Katie, ronda etc.
NEITHER ARE YOU.
we CAN and we WILL.
Now we ARE.
I got a pasty email today and a phone call from a casino , offering me all sorts of perks to come back. Persistent pests sent they. It just made me very cross not tempted
2 weeks for us tomorrow mixer, actually looking forward to payday for the first time in a very long time !
Evening All!
I have to say, after a hard days graft, it's a real tonic reading the posts on this thread tonight. And fear not Angela (Pinky); we are with you all the way. You're on Day 2 - stormin' it gal! P.S. I really liked your post; and I do feel for you. And believe us when I say that we turn up the heat sometimes because we care and really want you to live a happier life 🙂
Gavin; what can I say.. 7 weeks! Keep it going my friend. Every day is another day of choosing life. Good Man!
Katiecoo; loving your resolve. Great to see you getting cross with the phone call from the casino. Damned impertenance. I share your anger. We are on two weeks. I am personally so angry about the sly tricks of online casinos - phoning you up for crying out loud - that we are going to stop for 3 weeks. Joining me? P.S. Enjoy your payday!
KP - Truly delighted hearing about your meal with your ex. Not even a passing glance at those parasitic waste-of-times-and-money.. Excellent. This will be noted by your ex. But she wants to see much more of the same. I can feel your determination rise yet another notch as you read this. f- ing boxes are never getting on the way of my life again, I can hear you muttering; no way am I going down this sh---y path again. Am I close? Thought so.
SC, you are giving out incredible support and you are on Day 4. And you are storming it day by precious day. Easy? No. Determined? You know the answer to that question. Fed up with conversing with a computer program and giving it your hard earned money? Beginning to hate them? I would suggest, reading your post, that you are starting to hate this misery generator.
We CAN, we WILL, we ARE.
We are going strong guys. Clocking up the days and weeks between us.
Mixer, your enthusiasm and determination is infectious!
I'm sure everyone else in our group feels exactly the same.
We CAN and we WILL
The 100 day challenge!
Here's an idea that may suit some members of our group!
Fancy taking part in a challenge. Basically, we pledge to reach Day 100. If any of us fall off the wagon, the Day counter resets to 0.
Now we are human, but do you feel super-human.
If ALL those who participate reach Day 100, then I will start a thread in the Success Stories section -"We CAN, WILL and ARE". This section is a bit threadbare so it would nice to post something here, don't you think?
The big question is - can we do it?
This challenge may not suit you. And that's fine, because we will all continue to support each other 100% regardless. Whatever works for you!
If you would like to join in, simply post 'In'.
WCAWW.
IN.
DEFINATELY IN.
Good Man, KP. Just KNEW you would!
IN! IN!
Great idea Mix 🙂
Won't be around much today fellow groupies, not feeling to good, think I have a nasty chest infection so Doc has ordered me to Hospital for x-rays and couple hours on Nebuliser to try regulate my breathing 🙁
Anyway enough of that.....keep going my friends....we are racking up those hours days weeks together!
WCAWW!
M x
In
Good stuff guys. We got this.
Will it be easy? NO.
Is it gonna pick away and anger us to breaking point? MAYBE.
can we do it? YES.
We have Will of titanium brothers and sisters.
Don't worry I have much stronger and harder compounds to come layer down the line ha!
We'll have a new one every week!
We CAN and we WILL.
Mix and Katie are in the 14 day club!
I haven't the time at the moment to go through everyone even though I know our secretary, the rt. Honourable mixer is, but we'll done to those on 2 weeks and above and we'll done to all on our journey.
You got this guys.
We CAN and we WILL.
Day 3 almost done for me. My worry is my problems binge gambling so no matter how long I last I could slip up at anytime. Worked out it will take about 2.5 paydays m to repay my debt which makes it seem like there's something to aim for. Good to hear all are going well. Staying away from the football tonight!
WCAWW
Day 3 almost done for me. My worry is my problems binge gambling so no matter how long I last I could slip up at anytime. Worked out it will take about 2.5 paydays m to repay my debt which makes it seem like there's something to aim for. Good to hear all are going well. Staying away from the football tonight!
WCAWW
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