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Hi B,

Doing ok at the moment, but I feel that is more down to lack of funds than anything else.

Well done to you, how many days are you on now?

Hey Russ, i wanted to stop by and say hello on your diary after you kindly took the time to read mine.

The one bit of advice i would chuck in your direction would be to find away to talk to friends/family about this rather than solely relying on the words of internet 'strangers'. I would honestly say that is the single most important thing i've found to date has been the love and support of those close to me who i've confided in.

The people who'll judge you and treat you badly for this 'weakness' aren't worthy of you or your time.

I know its the scariest of prospects but if you think about it, it won't actually change any of the past and it might just help your future. I'm obviously not saying just blurt it out or whatnot but try and think about who you could share this with and how they might react.

Thats my two penneth worth but as you've seen i'm weird haha

I'll keep looking in on you dude, wishing you the best

Hey Russ, i wanted to stop by and say hello on your diary after you kindly took the time to read mine.

The one bit of advice i would chuck in your direction would be to find away to talk to friends/family about this rather than solely relying on the words of internet 'strangers'. I would honestly say that is the single most important thing i've found to date has been the love and support of those close to me who i've confided in.

The people who'll judge you and treat you badly for this 'weakness' aren't worthy of you or your time.

I know its the scariest of prospects but if you think about it, it won't actually change any of the past and it might just help your future. I'm obviously not saying just blurt it out or whatnot but try and think about who you could share this with and how they might react.

Thats my two penneth worth but as you've seen i'm weird haha

I'll keep looking in on you dude, wishing you the best

Still going, not even sure what day I am on anymore.

To answer your question HP, I do confide in friends from time to time but could not face telling close family again. I have done this in the past and lied to them ever since, I would rather keep the frustration to myself, without ruining anyone elses life. There does seem to be something different this time though, like a realisation that I have just about played all my cards and another relapse would result in major changes in my life.

Until then, I'll keep hoping that it doesn't bite any time soon.

Stay strong.

Hey Russ,

Another week nearly done! On 115 days now and feel like im still recovering. Not sure if it helps but youre not on your own with this - i get why you dont want to tell your family but would really try to get some time with a professional - its really helped me with the guilt and given me a point of accountability.

Keep fighting the fight - there is more to life than we know,

much love

b

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Cheers b,

I have to say that this does feel completely different to any other time that I've tried to stop. I gave up smoking 15 years ago after 10 years of trying, and knew that I had done it the last time. It has never sickened me before, and I get angry when I see emails or adverts from casinos and bookmakers. Only time will tell, but at a guess I would say that I have a better than even chance of finally overcoming it.

You keep focussing as you're doing great,

Stay strong

Russ

Day no idea,

I have gambled twice in the last month and was not particularly proud on either occassion, however it is getting more and more the exception rather than the rule. I find now that I feel terrible from the moment I start gambling to the moment I finish and have not to my knowledge deposited twice into any account for a very long time. I am not saying that I am happy going along like this, but I seem to be far more controlled over the last 7-8 months than ever before. The relapses that I have suffered have not impacted on my life and am finding that over time I am less and less interested in gambling as a whole. Maybe true or maybe my brain playing tricks again.

Anyway, stay strong

Russ

Hey Russ,

hope youre feeling ok? Good to hear its feeling more under control.

I have a question for you...why do you still have your account open?

Much love

B

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Hi b,

I don't, I just keep opening other accounts and finding a way round all of the blocks that I've put in place.

At the end of the day I have to come to the point where I no longer require gambling to fulfill whatever it is it fulfills. Until then I'm afraid I will keep relapsing.

As of today I am back to reporting in every day until I can trust myself.

I will also try the £10 in the jar again.

Stay strong

Russ

Hi russ,

Trying again is still trying, glad to hear youre back in the horse, we've akl been there - you will get through it,

Stay strong

much love

b

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Hi mate,

Im new to this site and here to try and help as an ex gambler. Ive been reading your posts and i feel what your going through. I think the most important thing is to try and forget about the money. Its more about how it makes you feel as a person. Set very small and manageable targets. even an hour or a few hours. If I can help please drop me a reply. IT CAN BE DONE

Thanks Dan and B,

You can probably guess from my absence that I have been gambling again over the last 2 weeks. I keep winning at the start and setting off the whole merrygoround of this time being different, it never is and I always end up skint. No matter what blocks I put in place, I seem to find a way round them.

My only problem now(Only!! haha), are online slots. I don't bother with football or racing anymore as a rule, but as soon as I open another casino account I lose control..

I have just lost a lot of money that I haven't got, so will probably be able to stay off it now for a couple of weeks through guilt.

I could have picked a cheaper addiction, typical me!

Speak soon

Russ

Hi Russ,

Just read your entire thread, like I've seen a few people mention on here I completely understand where you are coming from. I've tried and tried and am trying again. My problems were on horses/football/golf/greyhounds/tennis/cricket/two raindrops racing down the window etc etc.

Like you I look at friends and think they have this house or that car, whilst I - and I know I used to earn more than them, being a qualified accountant - have sod all to show for it! Decisions, decisions hey. I've been making the wrong ones for 20 years now. Every time I got paid within a week at the most it was gone.

I hope you can do it this time, I'm at the start again, so I'm with you. All the best.

Not Again

Cheers NA,

Im thinking about what Dan said a couple of posts up. Don't think about the money, think about how it makes you feel.

I have had some of the biggest highs of my life after big wins, but it is only a temporary feeling before the inevitable losses.

Keep checking in and hopefully we can stay off it this time.

Feel fine today, no urges.

2 days complete.