Right well what a week it has been, posted a few times on this website now but always drifted away, will tell you a little about myself, I'm 28 have a amazing fionnce and a lovely daughter aged 6, 7 next week, I've been gambleing on and off now since 18yrs old, I couldn't say how much I've lost as I really don't no but it's he'll of alot, I'm currently in 15k of dept all due to gambleing, my final straw was when I lost 2600 in space of a hour on my phone on roulette while I had my daughter for the night I sat there in my room crying gambleing away while my daughter is playing her wii without me asking me to play and I took out on her, how could a dad do that??? So that's the start I also lost £3600 few days before hence why my debt is high as uped my loan, so I didn't sleep last night much and finally come.to the agreement with my other side of brain that I can't control to tell my fionnce about my addiction, I've not spoke much to her as she is at work but just few messages on dinner breaks so dreading later when she finishes, we are due to get a morgage end of year so I'm hoping this doesn't put a end to that, can't describe how embrassed and ashamed I feel , feel going to lose my life here just hope she understands my problem, I'm more determined then ever to quit now and get on with my life, I seriously think this is as far as I can go.with gambling as it's making me feel ill everyday and stopping me do.the things I enjoy, day 1 of gamble free (no cash to gamble)
I really feel for you mate,you're obviously not a bad guy like the rest of us just been poisoned by the terrible illness,it's not your fault it's just how it controls us,but you wouldn't be on here if you didn't want to change,like with me confessing leaves me terrified and feeling sick but not as sick as the thought of spending one more penny on gambling,thinking of not losing my family has got me through,so stay strong you can make it.
Thanks for the reply, I'm just sat in bed thinking how stupid could I be to lose that amount of money it's crazy, I hope it works out for you mate I thought it would help confessing but as of yet she not speaking to me since I've been home so like I say I'm in bed in my own messed up world
Day 2 gamble free,
Well it's payday today and it's not even crossed my mind to gamble, back to confessing it was a horrible experience last night seeing my gf hurt but I'm glad it's all out and we have had a chat about it and I've addminted I have a problem, she has said she will leave me even if I do a little football bet so this is were it gets real now and put a end to it, I more determined then ever to stop any type of gambleing it's going to be hard but I will do it for her and my daughters sake time to step up and be a man no more bookies or casino making me look like a mug and a computer controlling my life it's pretty sad when u think a computer game can make u feel this way but that's the addition hey, happy Friday everyone
Top man yourself for confessing to your other half. I can't say its been easy but it is getting easier.
I even found myself in the casino on Wednesday but didn't give in to temptation.
Stay strong mate.
Steve.
Thanks for the support Steve people like yourself wil get rid of my horrible addiction, well done on having no temptation shows that you are winning this horrible bug 🙂
You've done nothing different to the rest of us,it's the feeling of being alone on this and the shame that makes it so horrible.you sound like you're doing well and on the right track but if you ever feel weak or down there's a lot of support especially on places like this as I'm starting to find out and Is such a help,we can all beat this together.
Good luck mate, i just confessed to my dad. Feel very remorsful for my actions it has to stop. I cant go on like this
Thanks for the replys both of you, yeah I agree do feel very alone with it it takes you to a dark place were it just feels like it's only you and nobody else, but yes we can all stick together and get each other though it, well done on se123 on telling your dad I no how it feels now the guilt the shame etc but it will help u, you can talk to him how u feel and it really does help, and can't wait to get home to my gf and daughter now knowing my gf can support me but still I'm the one who has to change it,
Hope u both have a top weekend
Hello Pol2013
Thank you for coming by on 90 days challenge. Unfortunately we only got one week left until the thread will close but may i suggest you to have a look on Overcoming gambling problem section, there is 2015 challenge running until the end of this year, and I'm sure soldiers on there will be more than delighted to have you on...challenges are massive help for all of us and just strengthens our resolve to stay clean.
Gambling is horrible addiction, but you're in control of your life. I am more than sure that your 7yr old daughter don't wonna see dad "not with it" when she is around...she deserves more as well as your fiancГ©...You yourself deserve more from life. Please put as many blocks as possible, ask for help (it's plenty out there) , accept the losses and move on from the past. There is a way out and it does get easier as time passes by.
Keep making the right choice...each day - every day.
All the best, stay strong, believe in urself
Sandra x
Thank you Sandra that will be great I will keep my eyes open for when the next challenge event starts I really determined to show people that I can beat this and that I will no longer be the person were people look at me and think why, I will take your advice on board and be putting blocks in place starting tomorrow when I'm off work, thanks for posting
Day 2 gamble free
Well work is over now I have most of the night on my own, so my plans are to go to the gym and get my daughter have some quality time with her, going to make cakes with her and watch a film, going to start planing my days now anything to take my mind of the demon, hope everybody has a great night and no gambleing
Day 3 gamble free,
Well I've woke up feeling alot better then I have done, have alot on today so will take my mind of things, still geting that wired feeling can I win it back with the money I have in overdraft but I'm not giving in this time this is for real now I'm not going back,
Hope u all have a great weekend
Cheers mate give me the confidence I need like you say 1 day at a time, I can beat this and I will for all you and my family
Thank you GT
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