2p on Poker to 22K debt,

Hey there

Great post, reallly enjoyed reading that and congratulations on your 80 days and wedding!

It’s annoying that football has betting sites sponsoring everything I’d say well over half shirt sponsors are betting related. Just gotta think however much they are making at least you aren’t adding to their profits now.

Sounds like you have this figured out, you’ve done brill.

cheers mna, do you know what i love with football now tho... i can actually just enjoy it, not praying that a certain amount of corners or yellow cards can happen... i mean come on how do they even work out odds on those sort of things lol.

really appreciate the support cant thank my wife enough either as i know im lucky she stuck with me as not everyone would have. :]

tunnie123 wrote:

cheers mna, do you know what i love with football now tho... i can actually just enjoy it, not praying that a certain amount of corners or yellow cards can happen... i mean come on how do they even work out odds on those sort of things lol.

really appreciate the support cant thank my wife enough either as i know im lucky she stuck with me as not everyone would have. :]

Exactly, those bets are stupid you’re not even appreciating the game just wanting corners etc. My plan to try to go to a couple of my teams games next season, can never get decent service anyway so I can put my phone away, not worry about the result of Lincoln Vs port vale etc and just want my team to win for fun again!

Didnt post yesterday as i got to work feeling really ill [ first time in months i have been ill ] i used to get ill every week due to lack of sleep and stress of gambling so to have my first cold since christmas actually made me feel pretty good.

If ever i had the day off sick befor it was a whole day of gambling for me. i wouldnt sleep but would lie there with snot dripping from my nose watching some random people from Khazakstan play table tennis.... not this time tho. i got home took some paracetemol and ibruprofen drank a whole pint of orange and slept for 9 hours straight... woke up feeling so much better. i used to wake up sometimes befor when i thought i had a certain winner only to find my tennis player lost 12 points in a row then i would never get back to sleep because of the panic.

I remember once deppositing £1000 from my wifes credit card and put it all on a 10/1 bet to try and sort out all my problems... the bet lost and i could here my wife on the phone to the credit card people saying that some possible fraud was happening. i heard her say no it hasnt i know whats going on.. i could here herr feet coming up the stairs and right then i knew i had been busted... this was time number 3 that i was caught. luckily the 4th and final time i admitted it myself and i think that was honestly me telling myself right enough is enough now... best thing i have ever done.

Again i urge anyone who wants to stop all the lies etc to just come clean. you will never regret it and it will be the best step you ever make in your recovery :]

just at work now {bristol airport] and a family who told there kids they were flying to glasgow to see their grandparents have just revealed they are really going to disney world.... my plan now is to do the same this time in 2 years for my wife and daughter.

oh and while im rambling just found out yesterday that i am expecting my second child [not telling anyone yet so thought i would tell you guys] so excited to be a dad again especially with no gambling worries :]

have a great day all

tunnie x

Well done Tunnie. An inspirational post. I wish you all the best for the future as well. I’m sure you have a great life ahead of you as long as you’re free from the addiction.

tunnie123 wrote:

Didnt post yesterday as i got to work feeling really ill [ first time in months i have been ill ] i used to get ill every week due to lack of sleep and stress of gambling so to have my first cold since christmas actually made me feel pretty good.

If ever i had the day off sick befor it was a whole day of gambling for me. i wouldnt sleep but would lie there with snot dripping from my nose watching some random people from Khazakstan play table tennis.... not this time tho. i got home took some paracetemol and ibruprofen drank a whole pint of orange and slept for 9 hours straight... woke up feeling so much better. i used to wake up sometimes befor when i thought i had a certain winner only to find my tennis player lost 12 points in a row then i would never get back to sleep because of the panic.

I remember once deppositing £1000 from my wifes credit card and put it all on a 10/1 bet to try and sort out all my problems... the bet lost and i could here my wife on the phone to the credit card people saying that some possible fraud was happening. i heard her say no it hasnt i know whats going on.. i could here herr feet coming up the stairs and right then i knew i had been busted... this was time number 3 that i was caught. luckily the 4th and final time i admitted it myself and i think that was honestly me telling myself right enough is enough now... best thing i have ever done.

Again i urge anyone who wants to stop all the lies etc to just come clean. you will never regret it and it will be the best step you ever make in your recovery :]

just at work now {bristol airport] and a family who told there kids they were flying to glasgow to see their grandparents have just revealed they are really going to disney world.... my plan now is to do the same this time in 2 years for my wife and daughter.

oh and while im rambling just found out yesterday that i am expecting my second child [not telling anyone yet so thought i would tell you guys] so excited to be a dad again especially with no gambling worries :]

have a great day all

tunnie x

Massive congratulations on your amazing news, you must feel happy to know that child will be brought up without any gambling problems and stress.

Totally agree about coming clean, feels such a relief rather than battling this thing on your own, trying to get that big will so no one would ever know the trouble you’re In.

Felling much better today, normally a cold would last for weeks with me as i would not be sleeping and then adding the stress from gambling and secrets but i feel so good today :]

just at work at the airport now seeing lots of england fans heading over to russia for the world cup. This is a big day for me as normally these tournaments just meant more gambling to be done as everything is on tv but i actually cant wait to watch the start of the world cup [as terrible as a first game as it is.... i mean come on russia v saudi arabia at 4 on a thursday afternoon... who came up with that idea haha] but i dont care i can just watch and hope putins men get smashed as lets be honest its clearly a fix to hope russia win there first game haha... i cant wait tho not caring about trying to get enough corners or how many yellow cards will be in the first 20 mins i mean who actually comes up with odds for this looking back it completely baffles me as to why i thought it was easy to predict these things :] i can finally watch the sport i fell in love with again.

i have also just booked my season ticket for bristol city next year [havent had one in the last 5 years due to debt and gamblig] i was stunned at how expensive they have got but when i put it in perspective considering i would happily spend that amount hoping the hong cho chun would win the 49th point in the badminton [hahaha] it made me feel much better.

thanks leedsfan yes i cant wait we go for our first scan tomo so will let you guys know if everything is ok :]

have a great GF day guys and lets all enjoy the beautiful game the way it was meant to be enjoyed... with a pint of beer and nothing else :]

tunnie x

Morning all sorry for not posting but had 3 days off work.... 3 days.... thats 3 days :] during my gambling time i would be wqorking 6 nights a week 12 hour shifts just to earn enought to pay my payday loans and now i can happily have 3 days off without worrying :]

i have decided everytime i post im going to put in a reminder of something stupid i did while gambling just to remind myself how stupid i was... todays entry... haveing £800 in a savings time

anyway on my days off i watched all the football just enjoying the beautiful game [ what a goal from pauliniho last night by the way ] and tooke my daughter to legoland and we all had a blast :]

have a great GF day guys am at the computer all day so anyone need a chat just go ahead :]

tunnie x

Morning all,

just started another shift at the airport, very releived to see England win last night... that is the type of game i would normally have put £100 down for england to win by 4 or more goal...my realistic head last night said 1-1 which just shows how gambling can convince you something is going to happen when in reality you know it is not :]

a passenger just came up to me and asked me why i looked so happy this time in the morning... got me thinking to this time a year ago when i was a complete mess, no sleep loads of lies and miserable as sin... and i look to now and everything is rosie good job that i am loving, beautiful 5 year old daughter [with another one on the way] beautiful wedding /disney holiday last year in florida, England winning yesterday and just bought my first house.. so many things to be happy about right now and all because i manged to escape the gambling demon :]

on another thread i am trying to convince someone to come clean to their partner but they seem reluctant to and its really getting to me as i know how much that was a big influence into me quitting... so if your reading this and to anyone that hasnt ... get it out in the open tell them or tell someone this will be the start of your new life. just remember you are not a bad person... no one has died but you have just made a mistake and there is time to make all this right :]

have a great day guys :]

tunnie x

A good read so far tunnie. Sorry to say that the story about the tin made me laugh, horrible the tricks a gambling mind can play on you isn't it. My team (Middlesbrough) have just been sponsored by a gambling firm as well so I will have a constant reminder (apart from the fact of not being there as often as I no longer have a season ticket as of this year because of my gambling) so a double blow as I love my football.

One of the things I have missed out on this year is taking our daughter to Disney and I'm making it my mission to get together enough in a couple of years so we have the holiday of a lifetime over there.

Although it was and has been absolutely horrific I totally agree about coming clean. I am VERY lucky in that my wife is still here and we are building back up slowly but I would still in a complete mess if I hadn't really got so far down that I had no other option but it's defintiely for the best.

Good luck

thank you for the reply samba :] oh yes many crazy things i have done to feed the gambling habbit, during one of my relapses, my partner used to give me £2.50 for lunch to get at work that night on the way to work i eould go to l*******s put it all on red hope to get it to a fiver then go in the shop next door to buy a paysafe voucher to put on my sports account to use through the night.... one thing i need to combat now i am GF is my eating, in the years of gambling i was working in a faced paced physical job and never ate as either didnt feel like it or never had the money and i never slept. now im not i have myself a decent job but its no way near as physical and im eating normally now so have been putting on a few pounds :] so just need to get into an excersize routine to sort that out :] my wife says she will always know if im gambling again as weight just seemed to fall off me when i was.

i know samba its frustrating that football teams need to use these disgusting companies to get theire money as its obviously putting it in the faces of people that love sport. luckily i have never heard of the company we have now got to sponsor us bus this does show that so many new ones are just ccoming up and profiting from this disgusting disease.

it really is a magical holiday when you go and to think i could have done it a few more times if i was not so stupid with money... just gives me the drive to take her and the new baby when she is 2 or 3 so im usiong it as motivation :]

Have a great day guys

tunnie x

Morning all,

havent posted on here in a few days as we have finally completed on our house purchase....One of the proudest days of my life and having my wife sit down with me for our first night in the new place with a glass of champagne and tell me how proud she is of me for beating this demon [so far, i know the road is still long] it made it all worth it in the end :]

for the past year i have had our wedding and our house to use as motivation to beat this and now i have achieved them both, the next target is to take my wife daughter and the next baby tunniew [due january] to florida in 2020, i also want to have part exchanged our current 2 bed by then for a 3 bed :]

i find by having large goals it helps me keeps focused and i am living proof that to get money and what you want you just need to work hard for it as a quick fix big win is never going to happen.

my stupid thing for today to tell you all about is when i took out £500 for our rent then lost it all in the bookies, i then put my wallett down a drain in the street and just told my wife i had lost my wallett with all the money in.... everytime i write one of these it actually makes me laugh now at how stupid i was. but also makes me worried how good of a liar i must have been as half the excuses i made are really farfetched but she beleived all of them. so glad i dont need to deceive anymore.

have a great day guys and COME ON ENGLAND :]

tunnie x

Tunnie, the happiness exudes from every line of your recent posts.
Many congratulations, long may it continue. x

Havent posted on here for a while just been really busy with the house move etc.

just a thought i was having but i hope by me telling you all the good things that are happening with me at the moment that it does not come accross as me bragging about it as that is really not the case. i just want people to see that you can go from rock bottom to on top of the world in less than 2 years if you reaslly put your mind to it and focus and work hard.

i have lived in Weston-super -mare now for nearly 15 years [7 of those i was gambling] when i was gambling you didnt care about making anyone else happy as long as i was getting my fix.... yesterday myself and my wife took our 5yo to the beach and i did something i have never done while living here... i swam in the ocean.. i would never have done that befor or even considered it as i wouldnt care if my daughter would have enjoyed it i would just be desparate to get back home to check on the scores or worried if i went in that my wife would look at my phone and find evidence of gambling.... but i did it ... yes the water is gross in weston but i had the best time with my little girl and just that time with her i knew meant more than anytrhing that money from a big win would buy....

have a great day guys