A fresh start (again)!

Well done you and us!

sorry I didn't check in earlier but was in my own little bubble!

I'm so proud of you for doing this and i hope we are both back for day 4 happy and gambling free x

Hiya Hun, just thought id check in and say i hope your having a lovely positive day x

Laura x

Hi Laura!

Had such a busy day that I haven't had time to log in.

Thanks for posting!I feel so much more in control of my life than this time last week!I know it's still early days but things seem to be going well.

xx

Busy is good! Well done for another gambling free day & good luck for another one tomorrow x

YOU CAN DO THIS XXX

A week on from when I finally decided to quit gambling once and for all...

I have gambled 3 times since.Not massive amounts (about 50 pounds altogether) but still gambled.

I'm not ashamed of myself.Perhaps I should be.I think it is putting too much pressure on myself to stop 100%...

So personally,I am going to continue to reduce my gambling as much as possible - certainly no online gambling or betting shops - because for me they have been the most destructive.

I will do what I can to reduce my gambling in arcades,but at the moment I can't stop completely.I have been through a break up from my partner of 7 years and have lost my Dad, both of which events have happened in the last 2 months.

Looking forward to my first counselling session on Saturday where we can discuss this in more detail.

Hope everyone else is achieving the goals they want to.

A week on from when I finally decided to quit gambling once and for all...

I have gambled 3 times since.Not massive amounts (about 50 pounds altogether) but still gambled.

I'm not ashamed of myself.Perhaps I should be.I think it is putting too much pressure on myself to stop 100%...

So personally,I am going to continue to reduce my gambling as much as possible - certainly no online gambling or betting shops - because for me they have been the most destructive.

I will do what I can to reduce my gambling in arcades,but at the moment I can't stop completely.I have been through a break up from my partner of 7 years and have lost my Dad, both of which events have happened in the last 2 months.

Looking forward to my first counselling session on Saturday where we can discuss this in more detail.

Hope everyone else is achieving the goals they want to.

Sully, do what you think is right but remember why you came on here on 1st place. It will be hard stopping as like any addiction the hardest thing is breaking the habit. It may mean going cold turkey is not the way for you to beat it but by sounds of things you've had a hard time of late so the further massive mood swings from wins and losses may only make things worse. I'm no expert tho- just a messed up gambler! Also that 50 you spent could've been spent on many things that also mightve improved your day to day mood.

I appreciate you taking the time to advise me,mile end. I will take your comments on board.

Thank you.

Cant advise you what to do Hun, you have to do what you think best. I'm sorry you have had a bad time of late but i really hope you find happiness and freedom.

keep posting if it helps x

best wishes Laura x

Had a mainly positive day.Have noticed that I don't get many comments on my thread even though I post on other people's so am considering stopping the diary altogether.

Guess some people's stories are of more interest than other's.

Anyway, hope everyone is getting what they want out if this forum.Don't be too hard on yourselves everybody and be realistic in your aims and good luck everyone!

Sully I've posted on your diary but know what you mean. I think in the early days I posted something very similar in mine but now take the view its my diary in a section that is marked diaries so in effect you are free to write what you wish and I don't bother if no one writes replies - it's helping me battle my demons (remember in general strangers reading diaries is tabboo). I think when someone's diary is quite new people are hesitant to write openly about their feelings, mistakes etc as so many start a diary but never get past the first few weeks posting. If you look the majority of those who comment are on diaries with many comments/posts already. Also if someone only writes a few entries then disappears did they really want to stop in the first place or was it just something to help them pass the time during the helplessness of getting to next payday on no money, then once there they get back to the bookies asap. That may sound harsh considering I've ballsed up badly twice in 3 months but I know I can only hope for help from others if first of all I at least show I am trying my best myself - I don't always get it right but I'm not going to give up. I hope you don't either.

Hi Sully, Ive recently started a diary, Im not looking for comments. Im using it as somewhere to write down my thoughts and concerns so I have somewhere to look back through if and when I need it. Isnt that what a diary is ultimately all about?? You!

If you get support, then great. I havent been here long but I have seen a lot of people writing "Didnt have anything to add so didnt want to clog up your diary with repeating comments" I wouldnt take it personally, everyone on here seems so supportive of everyone else, and Im sure theyre routing for you, even without comments.

Stay strong x

Thank you for taking the time to write on my thread.I appreciate it.I was just feeling down seeing everyone else had people commenting so much and I was getting hardly anything.

My problem is that I respond well to positive praise, but respond negatively when it's lacking.

Yet another thing I need to get over I guess!

Thanks again.Had a gambling free day today.

Wahey, well done Hun x

I'm sorry if you have had a rough couple of days, i logged on yesterday but couldn't think of anything positive to post on anyone's diary. My fault i was in a slump.

I'm glad you are still here x

just wanted to say in thinking of you and hope you have a happy positive day tomorrow x

Laura x

Hi sully

Well done on your days of abstaining and maintaining

Stay strong and positive

Suzanne x