Nikki
great to see what abstinence gifts.
Most of all for free!!!!
Keep making the right choice and enjoy it.
Duncs stepping forward never back.
Hi duncan,
its been keeping me at bay which i'm grateful for. i have an appointment tomorrow at aquarius for a session so i'm happy for that as well.
Keeping busy is key to a good recovery. Try not to do something just as because it seems better than gambling, do something you enjoy and can see a positive result at the end. Some days are better than others but the longer you get between the now and your last piece of action, the stronger you become.
Take care
cheers smiler,
i'm getting there slowly and i will start doing things for enjoyment other than just to keep busy..im writing abit as itas a hobby of mine so that helps.
morning diary,
today is a decent day..im hanging with my kiddos watchin cartoons and playing a sims 3 game so alls well..recovering is hard but i manage
morning diary,
things are good here on my end..no rediculous deposits to the point where we cant even access the overdraft for some food shopping. atleast we're building back up
Morning diary,
Today isnt a good day for me as i have lied to you for the past week.. i didnt go on any gambling sites dont get me wrong but its still just as bad..I have been playing on second life for a few weeks trying to earn virtual currency for a little extra income..if you're not familiar with second life its basically a virtual world where you can do just about anything.. your avatar can be edited into what ever you choose. you are able to walk, move, run fly..its almost like the sims 3 but more advanced.. and you have options to either buy virtual currency or earn it.. i have been earning it but because second life even has gaming areas you pay to play in the virtual world. i also bought so much currency it equaled to about 160.00. lost almost all of it because second life even has gaming areas you pay to play in the virtual world. what little i had left i bought a fishing rod to gain experience and earn more virtual currency you can cash out for real currency. i stopped buying currency yesterday..and im hoping to earn what i lost back..might take me a few weeks but i doubt my husband will let me keep the game on which i cant blame him i cant believe i had another relapse.. i was doing so well and now i feel useless and sick
dear diary,
today is a nervous day for me as i have not told my husband just yet..wont be a problem him finding out on his own as i used the bank in our name. hopefully i can make it up to him and the family by just earning my losses and never stepping into those stupid gaming sims again
dear diary,
today is a good day..still in the s*****r but not as bad as before..may good luck be on y side to fight
well back to day 1 i guess..got desperate and did the stupidest thing ever..fortunately it wasnt much but only because the bank funds were too low as it was anyway..i hate myself but im not going to run away..i know i have my problems but i will always take responsibility for them..
morning diary,
maybe theres hope for me yet..made a mistake..never again..think from now on i'll start doing everything by the book..just making an honest earning anyway i can instead of looking for the easy way.
morning diary,
today is abit stressful for me as the bills go out tomorrow and we have only enough for them and not much for shopping this week..hopefully i can get a small loan from family to level my debt out other than that im ok.
today is a decent day for me..no gambling..no major debt to the point i cant grab some groceries.. and no more drama..i will continue keeping up the work.
Hi Nikki,
Well done for navigating through some stormy waters. Every day is different indeed. Enjoy the good days and let the bad ones pass. It can be difficult at the time, but you are in control of your future and making the right choice each day will take you where you want to be. More good days will come into your life, never let the belief go, we live only once - make the most of your life. You are worth all good things coming your way.
Have a good week, stay calm and carry on.
Day at a time
Sandra x
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