a new way of thinking

Hi Elizabeth (((((E))))))

No wonder you couldn't sleep, thinking of all that pooey stuff! I used to struggle to sleep, and you can overcome it. I have a "happy place" that I go in my imagination. It is a beautiful walled garden, with a hammock and the second I step into it I know that this is my sanctuary where everything is exactly as I wish. I hear whatever I want to hear, and I see whatever I want to see. I feel warm sunlight on my skin, and my rabbit jumps up into my hammock and snuggles up with me : ) I can make whatever I want to, happen in my happy place. It feels blissful!

Maybe next time you are agitated at night, you can close your eyes and create your own sanctuary? It also works if you can't get your mind off upsetting events or memories.

Wishing you a peaceful night tonight. You are doing great, and I am pleased you are here.

Take care,

f x

Thankyou Pink and Freda,

Dont really know where that all came from but i suppose certain things in your life birthdays,anniversarys etc set you off thinking bout stuff.Well i sort of do as i cant believe he is 3 and 3 odd years ago my world was collaspsing and now im doing it for myself and things really are alot better.:0)

Surprise surprise tired again but mums down later.Still nothing better than a mum hug even if i am 40:0).

Freda i will give that a go i used to do it when the kids had night time terrors really used to help calm them down.Never thought about trying it for me.

Money f***k up today supposed to get paid by a customer ,theyd gone out didnt leave my money really needed it with LOs birthday but hey ho i will get through to friday payday by a rizla paper.Will just be tighter than i was expecting.

Stay Strong and positive

E xx

Nice post, well done and keep strong. I'm still reading! (BTW, you know i was Mm before, right?)

Hey E

Wowzer that was a ramble lol but I'm sat here writing this to you and you made me really smile, and gave me hope that anything can be done.

When I first started my diary I thought I'd be in a minority as gambling was a mans thing, but its nice to find some great gals on here who are going through or have gone through this nightmare of gambling and come out the other end and continue to fight this addiction.

Keep going strong cos us ladies can do anything be anything and achieve anything and your proof of that.

Alisha x

Hi Gals

Research shows that there are more and more women gamblers finding their way into recovery every day. I think internet has alot to do with it. Anyhows keep fighting the fight one day at a time. Make sure tomorrow is a good one. If things aren't going too well remember to smile and think "At least I didn't gamble". Take care

Hiya E...I think you have done bloody marvellous..and you should be proud of yourself...you sound one fab lady, one fab mum and one fab inspiration to many many people....You're a true survivor and now someone who lives rather than exsists......you can be yourself now and not controlled .

I also know exactly how that is and how that freedom in the mind is so precious,

Time for us all to live now ....

On the sleep thing ...I was pacing around in my head last night,couldn't sleep...something that helps me but feel free to ignore if it sounds a right load of hippy s**t....

lie on me back...lights out...small breath in count of 1 then breathe out of 5... repeat small breath in and then breathe out to count of 10...and so on...keep making that out breath longer and longer..

Think Fredas happy place is also cool idea too..I've got too much of a jumpy brain so i'm rubbish at visuals.I will try it though and have patience......take care hun...sleeps and good vibes.....Rach n Doo (((xxx)))xx

Thankyou LJ,Lishmac,Smiler and Rachel for the support always always much appreciated.

Rune stone today....look after my health.

Stay Strong

E x

TW

Strength and Honour, read post last eve, thought would save for a re-read this morning in case of any inspiration required... Good on you.....

T/C exmug

Thankyou Exmug.

Good day today worked hard.

Had a funny turn this morning when i got up it was like a cold sweat without the sweat very strange lasted a couple of mins then i was fine.

Roll on the weekend i hate week days blah.

Alls well on the gambling front.

Stay Strong

E xx

hiya E...posted to you on my diary too....ditto on the weekend only cos I've got loads to do at home....don't go too long without food ...cold sweat type stuff can be blood sugars....take care ..hugs xxxxx

Thanks for the post x

good to see you are doing well and yes I cant wait for the weekend also looking forward to a few glasses of wine on friday night 🙂

Thanks Dotty and Pink.:0)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABY BOY Whoop Whoop.

Cant believe my baby is three only seems like yesterday this tiny 6lb 3oz cutey was born now he looks 4 and built like a rugby player.

No chance of ruining a brilliant day with gambling.

Stay Strong

E xx

Hiya Elizabeth 🙂

Happy Birthday to your wee one...it's days like these that makes life good 🙂

Love Del xo

Happy Birthday "E"s little "e"....Hope your having a fab day ...its all good.xxx(((xx)))

Hi E!

Glad to see alls well on the Gamble front.

Keep going foorward for you and your family.

We can beat this!

Viggo.