Abstain and maintain.Stepping forward never back.

Good luck Duncs, that's the ugly face of capitalism and greed for you. If you need any help just ask, remember I'm from Liverpool and it'd be no problem to organise a marching flying picket of paper boys, girls and pensioners whistling the Red Flag as we descend upon the sunny south coast. Hope it gets resolved before then though.

Glad you've still fighting for what's right.

Steve Marx

Def think a protest march is in order at the very least preferably escalating to occupying the shop (do they sell sweets). Oh the memories of the art school occupations and protest marches of the sixties, good to see the passion for justice still remains.

xxx

Up the Revolution.

If you need someone to hold banners and shout.. Im the very girl for the job duncs, great to see you fighting for what is only fair and right. Good luck .

Below are the details you need if you would like to text a donation to my race for life as you have so kindly offered in the past. Thanks duncs

Text the code PNKK55

Then the amount you wish to donate i.e £1

then send the text to 70070.

Thanks duncs your a star.

Up the REVOLUTION lol

Hi duncs

Thank you again for your post on my thread. I couldn't leave without 1st saying thank you. I've come to rely on you and Rachel as the voices of reason from both sides. And from that I've gained strength and intelligence on the world of a CG.

not something I will ever truly understand but I've learnt.

With my posts on here I've only ever typed what's been in my head and I can't speak out. Sometimes a little jumbled sometimes rambling that makes no sense but it gets it out I suppose.

I feel now I've come to a crossroads and need to leave this site behind. Shame I can't take u and Rachel as little voices with me but I find that my husband is more concerned about retaliating to what I write and it's not doing me any good.

The final straw being him asking me if there was anything he could or should be doing to make things right. If there was anyway back for him

I offered him a route. I offered him 5 months of support, help to build relationships with his children and a friendship with me to start with. Conditions applied were not to have charge of his money, leave all financial arrangements as they are for the time being, share parenting of our children, to have regular credit checks done, attend gam care and ga regularly and also supervised Internet access. Having offered this I thought he bought bite my hand off and the children were so happy that I would even agree to it. However the questions I got back from him were, what kind of supervision and why credit checks.

Not at all what I expected for someone so desperate for a road home. So having offered what he wanted he is now undecided. What can a girl do hey

I've read philb diary and castles and yours start to finish. None of you had an easy ride but as people who with their heart and sole wanted recovery were happy to take the hard work on of rebuilding your lives and take the rough with the smooth. I feel my husband is not ready for recovery and not ready for the hard work. I now have to accept this. I've been second best to a machine for so long I have no intention of becoming one.

So I bid you all good bye and sincerely thank you and wish only good luck to you all x

Hi Duncs,

I want to thank you for your unwavering support. I am not an easy case and never was. When people "stick it out" with me it really makes a difference. Trust has never come easily for me. You my friend are solid gold. Thank you for accepting me warts and all -- plus the bazooka, and the grenades I carry in flak jacket, oh and of course my trusty crossbow.. never go anywhere without that.. 🙂 -joanxxx

'Hell hath no fury like a mac bumped!!!!!'

Thats given me the biggest grin of the day.

Good on you Dunc's and strength to Callum.

Vroooom

Evening diary.

Well had a build of my resolve this morning read some amazing posts, no more than the post Steve left on Ade's thread, absolutely bang on. Well worth a read. A post from deep within the mind of a gambler afflicted with the compulsion to gambling.

Then early this evening i had my first phone chat with a fellow compulsive gambler in the quest to find a better way to deal with the urges when they come along.

Enlightened and enriched by talking, a therapy i adore, take so much heart in the fact that like minded folk, understanding every word, a frank and honest exchange.

Hopefully another brick for each of us laid in the quest to put an ever growing obstacle between us and the destruction that is brought on by our gambling.

I relentlessly search for the ultimate block, in understanding that for us all it has to be bespoke.

A hand crafted, tailor made reason to have the ability to deal with the urge to gamble. To take all those horrendous feelings, the self loathing, self hatred,the belief that gambling will make it all better, our escape from whatever gambling has kidded us into thinking it will fix, and bottle up those feelings and use them to our advantage.

to gift ourselves something that only truly we can, the strength, knowledge and above all the courage to face up to those urges and gift ourselves the best outcome.

those three words that for the compulsive gambler mean we gift ourselves that we are Winners.

No bet today.

To walk on past the gambling emporium, and feel more exhilarated than any walk out the door ever gifted us.

As we all know its not walking through the door that's our problem its walking out again.

by walking past we win.

We did win because we did stop.

a feeling today i was privileged to share with someone who shares my lifes dream.

just for today I salute you, take a bow and stand proud.

you earnt it, I'm honoured to helped with that brick.

one day one brick at a time.

Duncs stepping forward never back.

Joan is so right about you being solid gold so in honour the first brick in my wall is pure gold.

Thankyou

xxx

morning diary.

'Slow and steady wins the race'

That is the gift I take from todays reading around this fabulous forum. We whilst gambling crave instant gratification, the instant high. In life i wanted everything yesterday, tomorrow is no blo##dy good, well actually all good things do i believe come to those who wait.

To save for something you desire, not chase it through a bet, gifts you two fold.

firstly you get the gratification that you actually earnt it.

secondly and for me most poinient you actually end up with something you want, really want.

I have impulse bought all my life, from the wierd and wonderful in the food cupboards that will never get eaten!!

to the pushbike that was impractical alongside the couch that never fits!!

To gift yourself abstinence, to re educate your value of money, does for me truly mean that you actually do have enough for what you need, and if you desire something, it can be achieved, and along the way you may change the goal a few times but that's all for the good.

Here's to no more tins of stuff we are never going to eat!!(what did happen to harvest festival lifes tin dump lol)

and no more bikes rusting away uncycled !!

Today I made a choice, that I won't be speculating any of our hard earnt.

why??

the race just begun and the odds!! shocking for what i have at stake.

No bet today.

Duncs stepping forward never back.

Great post Dunc.

Your thoughts make a lot of sense.

No bet today.

Warm regards... S.A 🙂

Hey Duncs

Thank you for the support and that saying is so true. All I can do is keep myself on the right path and stay bet free, that's all any of us can do. We can only guide, we cant force people to make that step forward.

Hey Duncs

Thanks for sharing your last post- I'm slowly learning that the instant results aren't all they're cracked up to be!

Take care

Irene

x

Morning Dunc.

Hope this finds you well.

Best wishes,

gazza

afternoon diary.

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!

Student finance!!!!!!!!%^&*#@ f**k YOU!!

This year we have started the process of reapplying for Joe's support, thinking, yes this will be a piece of cake!!

No I dont have a password but should have and now need one, to get this I need the secret answer!!

To get the secret answer you had to do a lot of copy and pasting, then it sends you a link, on the link it says type in the secret answer we sent you!!!!

Where, it's so secret they kept it to themselves!!!!!!

Now I have to phone a premium number!!!

AAAAAAAAAAAHhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!

feeling better already lol.

Duncs stepping forward never back.

off to spend a fortune in the phonebox, as we cant phone premium numbers from our phones, we blocked that avenue of being robbed already!!!!

You will not take me alive!! LOL

Premium rate numbers are also the bane of my life too..lol ..

I spend more time googling for low rate numbers these days ...or popping into the orange shop to ask them to convert .,.i know you can install as app called "say no to 0800 " or something ...

AAAARRGGGHHHH ..technology eh ..!!

R and D xx