Adam poker 2015-2022-the future

So thanks to al and the support of folks, gamcarefriends family and my diary I've apart from one tv competion I accidently forgot was gambling I've not gambled since that day.  I think for me the stopping drinking, and asking advice from my folks before making rash decisions I've thought clearer and as u can see my life's been somewhat of a rollercoaster.  But I'll not have a midlife crises.....

I think skitsophrenia has stopped me from meeting a woman to have a meaningful relationship with and maybe kids but I will never say never I'm forty and I feel like I've lived a hell of a lot for my age and have due to living with my folks a pretty old mind not tired but mature in my thoughts.

So now I've not smoked since 2016, not drunk since that festival Aug 2019, not gambled since the following 3 Rd Dec 2019 840 days I'm proud to say.....  I come here to support myself and others and try to give some other people that advice that Al gave me that day that made that decision there and then to stop and has changed my life from then onward.

Hi diary,

Carpets have been done in my flat and are looking really good.  Just transferred the remaining 500 pounds for them and will have just one minus month on the expenditure for them.  

I spoke to Chrissy a nurse at work a couple of days ago and she goes to the dolphin gym and i said i used to go and was waiting for a deal to come up to join again.  Saw her today and she said it was the last day of a deal where you sign up for a year and get the first month free and no joining fee saving 73 pounds.  So overall for the year its 44 pounds a month.  So i went there after work and impulsively signed up.

So im once again going to look to lose my stumach (no mean feat in my forties as everyone who has hit their 30s and above knows that the matabaalition goes down and the weight goes up and is not as easy to burn as when your young).  Im not going to weigh myself as that allways fluctuates and i end up focusing too much on what im eating and it never gets me anywhere.  instead im going to focus on what i look like in the mirror, im going to focus on losing my excess weight and losing my man boobs by building muscle, excercising and being healthy thru this summer aand into the winter months.

Ill live near the gym and i have a friend who goes every other night so ill go with him around 7pm and do some classes, gym, swim, health suite anything that gets me out my flat and burning some calories......  I hope i can look better by this time next year.

Now im instantly tempted to write down what i weigh and focus on losing a stone but for me that just doesnt work and puts me in a bad place....... so ill aim to see what i can do in the next month and update on changes at least once a week.

I think its going to be a really good way to get out of my flat, meet people, whilst getting healthier....

All the best adam xx

Weekly update, went to my gym induction today, as i wanted to know how to use the weights with pulley ropes and different exercises to help get my strength in my shoulder after the christmas before last i asked the trainer to show me what i should do first to slowly build up my strength without overdoing it... he taught me five different exercises on them that i will do 3x12 reps ish one was tough the rest ok i put them on the lightest weight to get to grips with it..... all went well then i done 3 kilometres, 200 calories on the treadmill over half an hour.... walking mostly a bit of jogging..... my legs and arms are feeling a bit tired now but i know i havent overdone it which is the main thing.

May go again tomo see how i feel, then ill watch the spurs game at 430pm.

Lifes getting pretty busy at weekends, either at flat, shopping for things for flat or now going to the gym also.

DFS just sent me a text to arrange delivery of sofa.... so hopefully can get that sorted this or next week.

Next weekend is my neices birthday on the sunday (ive got her a purple hula hoop) they are coming over to play games so thats busy, ill prob visit the flat on the saturday.

Weekend after is easter, on the friday a friend may come up to see mine flat and have a beer in the garden, the saturday my brother in law is going to fix my cupboard doors and my sister will be over so i can watch spurs v brighton with my nephew and maybe play some sports at gym with them like short tennis. then nothing on the sunday. then another friend is coming over on the monday again to sit in garden and have a beer.  All weather dependent i guess.

Then will hopefully move into flat soonish

Then going to isle of white for four days start of may.

Tehn friends over and my birthday end of may start of june.

So lots planned and joining gym has just made my life busier, i like to get the best value for money so ill try to go to gym minimum once a week, prob twice a week but once in flat maybe more dependent on whats going on.

But really busy is good and lots to organise but my folks are good with organising me.... Also i turned down a curry in london with friends last night as i thought i could lead to rounds of drinks in expensive pubs so saved a bit of money there.

night night 

All the best Adamxxx

PS recoverywise everything going well too busy to gamble although i dreamt last night of playing on slots i think a lot get these gambling dreams.... thankfully i didnt end up gambling in the dream i just was going to and wanted to.... woke up and was like good it was a dream.

Also another update im on 850 days gamble free today so will now knuckle down to the next five months to hit 1000 days..... one day at a time.

Also just booked my sofa delivery for not this monay but next thinks its the 11th april.

Also just booked short tennis with my mum for tomo to play before watching spurs.

Lovely weekend

Adam

Well done on 850days Adam, that's some achievement there ? 

End of the week update......

Went to the gym again today done some weights then played tennis for an hour with my mum.

Drove there to give me confidence in driving again.

Booked my sofa delivery last night.  will be in 8 days time.

Watched spurs and we won taking us briefly into 4th horray...... i think weve hit form at just the right time and with less games we should have energy for the remaining 8 games.  Lets do this.

Thank you secret and dave for posting i love seeing others on my diary posting support.

Ive been told this week that we will get an extra two wellness days this year so i have plenty of holiday ro relax this year.... horray.  

so im going to isle of whight with my folks first week in may..... busy busy.

Ive also made sure ive not eaten any snacks today to try to lose a bit of mty stumach...... im not going to weigh myself as i said it doesnt get me anywhere im just going to look 

Thanks Dave,

Another new week..... Busy at work today then went to gym and walked 3k again.

Not snacking as much either good for getting trim.

All the best Adam x

Hi Fella,

Sorry you were on a downer last night. If things seem bad right now just remember when we both came here, me in 2018, you in 2015 I recall. How broken were we then ? yet we found a way through. You'll get through this.

Al

Thanks Al

Yes got thru a couple of down days......  Mostly work related.

Buying a few more things for flat.... Toaster kettle and microwave altogether 140 pounds not bad.

Going to flat and gym tomo. Then watch spurs.... Then it's my niece's birthday Sunday and city v Liverpool game.

Then back to work again.....

Looking forward to my trip to isle of white in three weeks.

My mental health is fragile it seems....

All the best Adam x

Lovely day today, lie in, followed by lunch, followed by tennis at gym, followed by arsenal loss, followed by spurs win!!!!!! bosch that sounds good to me.

Been to gym 4 times now in 8 days, may go tomo or for a walk.....

Sister coming over tomo for nieces birthday.  Will watch the liverpool city game.

Then back to work monday,,,,,, shorter week next week.

Next friday, sat, sun and monday ill be at my flat with friends chilling hopefully itll be sunny!!!!

I worried a lot thru this week but really lifes too short and i should just enjoy things as much as i can and not take things too seriously.... works work im not going anywhere but hey it has paid the bills and will continue to put a roof over my head and food in my belly..... i just need to not get too hung up on everything just take life as it comes.

Ill try to enjoy life more and make the most of my situation......  

Onwards and upwards

All the best adam xx

Another lovely day!!!! Woke up midday lovely, went for a two k walk lovely, sister was round when I got back, gave Chloe her hola hoop she loved it, played cards with family very funny, then watched Liverpool city game and ate a roast then done washing up and here I am .

Sofas being delivered between 730 and 1030 am tomo so an early start to be there on time....

Back to work tomo but looking forward to long weekend next week and hosting some friends and family at my flat.

Will look to get my stuff down to theflat over next few weeks but not rushing.... It will happen in due time.

Weather doesn't seem like it'll be that bad next weekend but not too amazing either......  Fingers crossed for some sun.

Hopefully nice weather for when I'm off and we go to isle of whight but we will see.

All in all lots to be thankful for and lots to look forward to 

All the best Adam xxx

Hi adam, just wanted to drop by and say I hope you manage to get a decent night sleep tonight. Its horrible when you can't sleep. 

Your doing so well in recovery and personal life, getting your flat together ready to start a new chapter in your life. Exciting times for you, and well deserved to. You are a very kind genuine guy. Thankyou for supporting me the way you do.

Night, stace xx

Ahh thanks stace lovely to see such a nice post on my diary xxxx

Lovely day today....  Got my flat ready (table and chairs and sofa inside, table and chairs outside) .... Got some drinks in and had three mates over it today for first time ..     . Really was lovely to chill out in garden........ Then got a Pappa John's to eat in garden lovely........

All in all a lovely day great start to the bank hol weekend 

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Tomo is a football day at home, may visit flat on Sunday and Monday to start moving stuff over .

Then just got to rent a van and get bed over..... 

Then I'm in...... 

Sweet

All the best Adam xxxx