Aegretudo Egretudo !

Hi DP

Very well done on day 4

Keep winning stay strong and positive

Suzanne x

Make the fight real this time dark place good luck my good friend x

Day 5 and starting to reap the rewards already, in financial ruin but at least my head has started to calm down and feel much better mentally. Looking forward too a day with my little boy and not interested in watching any horse racing. Have a great weekend all, Dark Place /

Hi DP

Well done on day 5

Have a great time with your little boy

Suzanne x

Good Morning Diary

Day 6 and now well and truly moving through the gears of abstaining. Lovely day yesterday, simple food shopping and cooking roast beef with my beautiful wife and son ! i think i spent 1.30 yesterday and that was for an ice cream for my boy on Monday i will be able to open my bank account and see no betting transactions on my acct for the last 7 days. I mean, i know it is silly but i actually gain a lot of satisfaction from that, when your punting it is sickening to observe as an after event. My wife just gone to work and back at 2pm, in the meantime i will chill out have a nice breakast with isaac then its darts and a few beers in the afternoon. Darts season starts soon so i need to start upping my practise, of course i will be watching footy too but without a thought of placing a bet on what would be a random result. No more throwing my hard earnt money away, i am sick to the back teeth with that compulsion.

Have a great day everyone, i made that choice to stop betting and now i am winning every day (thanks duncan, i love that line)

Dark Place /

Hi DP

Yes it does feel good to see NO betting transactions filling the pages up

You ARE winning by making that choice

Suzanne x

Hi DP

Thanks for your post Much appreciated

Stay strong and positive

Suzanne x

Day 7 and one week completed !

Little acorns as they say, been here before but my resolve this time is stronger, no more S***e but more life and its simple riches ! an honest man's pillow is his peace of mind ! gambling takes you to places we do not want to go, it is disgusting and should have been one of the ten commandments not to sin !

Anyhow a little deep for a Monday morning, in the office an working hard ! have a great week everyone. Keep free of the spell !

Dark Place /

Hi DP

Great to see you moving on and keeping determination. Well done on continued abstinence, life will get better as those days mount up. B proud and keep up good work.

All the best to you

Take care

Sandra x

Day 9 arrives with no scares although I did dream about gambling last night, in my dream I lost so it was good to wake up and realise the pain was only a dream !

Yesterday was early start, drove to Hull and put some files into a container in Hull docks ! nice 4 hour drive there and 4 hours back :-/ needed a beer when I got home.

Anyhow the sun is shining and I am becoming stronger by the minute ! have a great day all and stay free of the demons !

Dark Place /

Hi DP

Such a relief when we wake up and realise it was only a dream but that makes us even more determined to stay and get stronger

You are doing great

Keep going and keep being positive

Suzanne xx

I need to explore why the futile act of gambling has had such a huge place in my life for so long, this in a world where monstrous cruelty coexists with infinite compassion and where the line between optimism and self-delusion is always perilously thin !

Day 10 and the self exploration into my mind and weakness for the punt continues... feeling stronger Dark Place x

Hi DP

Day 10 is brill keep going and stay strong

You will strengthen and the addiction will weaken

How positive is that

Suzanne x

DP

Fella there is no doubt in my mind that abstinence is a gift,it is there on offer for everyone,funny thing is I also understand gambling makes us very cynical,we find ourselves questioning the cost of everything,we only see value in things through the size of the stake.

The truth is abstinence if free,a free gift,it is yes not always attached to the bells and whistles that come with gambling,folk talk of the loss of the buzz and excitement that life becomes mundane and meaningless.

For me life actually became worth living,it took twenty years of relentless losing for the penny to drop,I was living a life looking over the fence,always seeing the grass greener when in fact there was grass beneath my own feet,I just needed to stop living pipe dreams and enjoy the life I have

Warts and all.

Keep clearing your mind,make room for the life you gift yourself

Abstain and maintain

Duncs stepping forward never back

I am still rootin' for you. Let the gamble-free days continue to accumulate!