After ten years im still here fighting the fight

Adam is needed on here with this 6+ years betfree sure their been few 5 years on here only to relapse due to gamban endeding this extra time shows comittment and also gives me the peace of mind i can do it throught Gamcare would be nice if some of the other people came more even though they might not need the support i know with the local Ga i attended their were 5 people who had years of bet free admitted they didnt needed to attend as much however only came for the newbie to offer other people advice which i think is nice of people otherwise if nobody comes back it doesnt help this site in the long run

Thank you for all the lovely posts......  thats what im thankfull for today......the lovely support of all on here. 

Its lovely to get to a milstone on here and get such feedback.....

Im not gonna lie ive come thru some tough times........  But ive managed to stay gamble free.

Today on what seems like a milestone of significance ive got my ps pro ....... i installed it and its spent the last 9 hours transfering all games and data (and my gran turismo points and cars hopefully lol) to the new console...

Ive spent today watching footy...... mixed bag......

And also watching you tubers talk about the ps5 pro...... also reading up on it....... its fair to say the reviews are reallly positive so im really glad ill get to try it out soon.......

I also bought an ethernet cable on thursday night and will connect my new console directly to the router for even more performance......

With what i ended up paying for it ive actually paid for it solely with the gift cards i got back in december last year....... so im still on course to spend nothing on gaming for this calender year..... (one of my objectives)..... ill see whether i end up buying the gta six ........ but i think i can get that for my birthday present in may.....ill just wait to buy it with birthday money.......

Ive got soo many games to revisit that are updated with pssr but free with my ps premium subscription ive paid for upfront a few years ago....... Theres spiderman 1 and2, gow ragnorok, rachet and clank, gt7, war hammer space marine...... cyber punk....... but whos kidding ill just spend hours and hours on gran turismo lol.....

Im going to sell my original ps5 for 250 hopefully.....  ive asked a couple of friends if they fancy it......

Im really glad i got it for a great price as it would play on my mind if i paid over the odds for it......

Back to work tomo..... booooooo....but ive only got to work on week then i get 10 days off horray

Well with the spend Adam

Start of the week negotiated...... Done 13000 steps.....brings me up to 15 for first two days so all good....... Woke early went to work two hours early.....got everything done then home and a nap...... Cheese on toast....sausage and eggs.....then and now bed...,  let's fight

You are always positive and continue to work on your recovery Adam which I admire so much

I really missed the chatroom last night but I'm not in a great place, you know why, and I needed a GA meeting last night. Tonight is my home meeting so I'm missing.my beloved 8pm chat as well 

Hi Adam

How are you doing today mate ?

Evening just in bed without the heating on...... deciding whether to a) turn heating on and be warmer or b) wrap up more in bed......

Think ill go c) blast heating for ten mins best of both worlds......

my heating bills not been too bad this year...... but its been a cold march for sure which meant it been a bit more expensive than last year for heating.....

Today i went to work and grafted....... then came back.... nap.... went to town for some steps and a coffee..... then home for a pasta bake.... bath... gamcare chat and now sitting in bed......

Done 45 000 steps in first four days...... great consistent approach.... not going over board but ddoing well.....  12500 next two days.... then rest day saturday......

Sunday im playing golf......

Next week off work so looking forward to that for sure.....

Hi Adam

That sounds like a pretty perfect day mate. How different would that day have looked 7 years ago 

What's your golf handicap mate ?

my handicap is my glasses and my swing !!!!!!!! lol

no im joking but i allways just aim to beat 100...... i only used to play couple times a year with my dad.

Hi Adam

Might be good to take it up more often. Certainly get your steps up mate 

Hi Adam

How are you getting on buddy ? Have you done the 12500 steps today

Another positive day.......  Slept well,,,,,,,, went to work and graffted,,,,,, my boss worked from home today as hes fggot a lot on and didnt want any disturbance......  I done a lot then came home,,,,,,, and chilled.....

Done 10900 steps today........ will do 14000 tomo to hit the 70000 mark for th week then rest saturday.....

I impulsively signed up to a year of sky cinema which will cost me 60 pounds for the year....... ive also recently signed up to entertaiment and hbo max for 36 pounds for the year...... in all my streaming services including sky sports and paramount cost me 23 pounds a month which is a great price and its all in 4k ultra hd which looks great on my oled tv......  Watched the start of knight of seven kingdom and jurrasic park rebirth which were both great.....

Hi my dear friend

It's all money well spent and fantastic value for hours of pleasure. Keep fighting the fight. 7 years on the horizon mate which is incredible 

Hi stuart...... thansk for popping by...... my seventh year is not untill december long long way to go till that milestone...... focusing on the 2345 days which i think is 40 days away......

Found out today that all the playstations prices are going up in a weeks time....... this menas not only that theres more demand for them this wek but that i bought my pro at exactly the right time and for one hell of a good price.... so im thankful for that......

Been struggling today with the thoughts of having a drink of alcohol tonight (not made easier by the cans still in my fridge)........  I will feel much better in bed and in the morning without it.........  but thinking like to relax a bit with a can........  almost like its addiction even tho ive only had one can in eight years....... should be proud of that number........  Think the major hangover headache has done me a great strength by thinking ill feel ill the next day each time so i think ill take that as another omen that i shouldnt drink......ill give the cans to a friend...... 

Hi Adam

Sorry, should have worked that one out. You diary speaks of one day at a time, it may not say those words but the meaning is there, each day mate.

Yes, 2345 is a great next milestone to take fire at.

I guess on the alcohol front, you have worked that decision out for yourself. If it's not good for you, What's the difference between one or none mate

 Maybe removed the temptation and give the cans away ?.Up to you of course.

Keep posting mate, I'm sure a lot of people read them like me and you write such an honest diary of feelings.