Angel From Montgomery

Yo,

Listen Mrs as we say in blighty

Recovery is a journey , you have to be one incredibly fortunate soul to start one day and never gamble again.

Almost every week one or another of us relapses . It pulls at all our heart strings , but we are who we are .

You have come so far in the time you have been here .

That my dear dear friend should NOT be underestimated .

Come on Hun , I know you have the fight in you , I believe in you . So you may relapse again as may I . But if if the tables were reversed what my lovely would you say to me ????????

Hugs , and even more hugs !

Shiny xxxxxxxxxxx

Thank you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm ok. I'm safe and not gambling. Just disappointed and sad. You're right Sandra not talkative but, also know it's no good to isolate. Just, thank you. (((((((R))))))) (((((((S)))))))) and (((((((( shiny))))))))

Good to hear from you darling. Please stay close. It will pass and you will find ur old self again...we are here always ready to help and support.

Well done for today Joan....step at a time

Sandra x

Hi Joan, the sadness will pass and the anger return to fuel your fight, then the joy of achievement which is on the horizon.

You have kept my head above water in the past and I will forever have an image of a brave, very hot lady running round naked in a puddle in the garden to keep cool having pelted the neighbours with dog poo and water bombs.

Sending inflatable water wings and hoping one day soon I will see your arm waving above the waves.

xxx

Hey Joan,

Popping by to see how you doing darling. hope all is good and you are finding more peace with yourself. We are here, always be here, so just take as much time as you need to come back and share your thoughts with us..your presence is missed

All the best and send you strength..

Take care

Sandra x

Thanks Sandra.

Diary: I'm doing ok. Just somedays I have to bite my tongue so hard that it bleeds.... Reading about bored people who miss gambling just gets on my nerves. There must be somewhere on this planet where I can go and not run into an advertisement for gambling. -joanxxxxx

Joan,

We don't miss gambling do we? Let them people realize sooner or later, that future laid out for them...There is no other road than self destruction i'm afraid.....it might take time, but it will happen...

I'm glad you doing good my friend:) Strength to you!

Sandra x

I hear ya Hun ....i selfishly miss your posts but I can can feel you are still not far from us ...also miss the chaps too but I am hoping that they are out there living..

(((((J ))))))

Thanks Sandra and Rach. ((((S)))) ((((R))))

Diary: whoa, typing from my iPhone is a real pain! Very busy last few days. Mom needed emergency eye surgery and I have been doing private nursing duty. Today is the first day I have had some time to myself. Will be going out in a little while to visit with friends. No gambling. But, if I said it wasn't in my thoughts I would be lying. I'm feeling a little guilty for not being as supportive to others as I probably should be but, then again who likes a martyr? Not me. So that's me on this fine Saturday morning. Grateful to god that I am not sitting in front of a slot machine. I miss Ed today. I guess that's all for now. -joanxxxxx

Wishing you well

xxx

Yeah,...get back of here and start supporting Misses ..tsk..part timers! .....,,,..ONLY JOKING!! :-))))))))

Just a flyer Hun to say that I am sending you a big hug and wishing you well Joan...too right those fiddly phones are hard to type on.

Always listening to ya. Can't take your pain away as much as i would like but I can support you having every right to feel it.

R and D xxxx

Thanks dragonfly and Rach!!

Diary: I'm still plugging along. The urge to drop into a free fall and deplete my bank account comes and goes. Gambling recklessly is not a hobbie. It's a curse. I long to be in that place where I was before I brought this curse into my life. I long to be indifferent to the gaming industry again. I want to sit In the sunshine and feel the cool breeze against my skin. That was a commercial for Life by the way.... Lol. Life is good. When I'm in an obsessive state absorbed in a machine I forget all that. i enter into a dream state. Not dead but not alive either. Life passes by without me in it. I lose time and that is more precious than money. Ask anyone who has really lost..... Oh well rambling here and that's ok. Gonna go make some toast because I'm lucky. I can. -joanxxxxx

Just thinking.... bout the anti gratitude diary -- honest??? I have a sudden urge to attend a 12 step meeting. On the way I think I will stop by a church light a candle and pretend to pray. At least I've got the choice eh??? Nothing like controversy. Gets the blood pumping. Kinda like gambling.... Hmmm just thinking that's all. joanxxxxx

Joan.

great to see you sweeping the yard of those urges my friend.

They come and go, without prejudice good times and bad addiction treats those two imposters just the same.

Hope you have plenty of good thoughts of your Ed truly I do.

unconditionally as always.

why???

because I am privileged to.

Duncs stepping forward never back.

Hey Joan,

Been awhile, hope your doing well. Keep fighting the goodfight for yourself, you deserve it, and stay strong. Thinking of you.

Chicagoguy