Attempt to stop gambling and get out of debt.

Day 22 complete

Day 23 is coming to a close and I am happy to report it has been a gambling free 24 hours. The weekend was a success but unfortunately I did spend more than I had budgeted due to a much needed drink. I also loaned a friend money when I was drunk, even better, it is the one friend who is notorius for not paying it back! £50 that I will most likely never see again. I will try and really reign in any spending this week to counterbalance the weekend.

One thought niggled in today. The thought that a one off big bet would make for a much easier recovery. I know this is a lie, an illusion and a poisonous thought which must be told to politely f*** off.

I have had so many plans put on hold due to this obssession with throwing money away. The time has come to move on and be smart for once. I will gamble no more.

Anyways.....

What did I do today to not gamble and improve my financial position? I did not gamble. Unfortunately I wasted money on small items when I planned not to. Do better tomorrow.

Grateful for: The next stage of my life beginning.

All the best people

Day 24 complete

Day 25 complete. Not much to report. Couple of niggling thoughts about how I could do a debt but got them out my mind. Pay day is going to be difficult.

What did I do today to not gamble and improve my financial position? I did not gamble.

Grateful for? Food.

Day 26

day 29, been too busy to post.

Will update tomorrow

day 30

Well done student101 on 30 days. I have read through your diary and it seems like you are very goal orientated. This should help you stay focussed on the big picture but we need to be careful we don't entertain the idea that there's a quick way out of this. Keep on trucking. Myles

Thank you very much. Definitely agree that there is no quick fix.

Biggest struggle this month has been all the expenses I didnt expect. So even though its a month gambling free I wont be much better off this month as I was last month. Next months will get better though.

Big post tomorrow as its dreaded payday.

Day 31. 31 days since i blew nearly a months wages in under 24 hours. Something thats been a habit this year.

At midnight I get paid. I will not do it this time. I will not.

Interesting thought.... Last week I had a dream where I lifted money to gamble. In the dream I lifted the money and knew if I bet I was doing something awful. I bet it all and felt awful after it. I woke feeling relieved.

last night I had a similar dream. Except in this dream I was outside the betting shop with the cash knowing not to do it. I then started running from the shop.

Does this mean something. Probably not. But its something I have been thinking about all day.

As I have said many times in this journal, I will now be posting a couple of times a day. I cannot afford to slip up this month. I will not do it.

And so it begins......

Good luck student101 - you'll be fine. Just think about the good use of that money you can make if you don't waste it on gambling. We don't win because we don't stop. Enjoy your hard earned wages, Myles.

Stay strong 101 - fantastic first month for you, but don't let things slip. One month is great, but don't get complacement when you start to build up cash from not gambling - that's my usual downfall...thinking I could 'afford' to gamble again and then eventually the money's gone.

Thank you for your comments.

Day 36. Still not gambled. Been so busy lately

due to a lot of bills and spending too much my debts are actually slightly larger than last month after payments have been made. How depressing....

My debts are as follows:

Loan 1: £6225

Credit card 1: £2326

Credit card 2: £1670

Credit Card 3: £2200

Credit Card 4: £890

Payday loan: £450

Total- 13761. With 500 cash in the bank.

Next months pay will be the start.

AT LEAST I DIDNT GAMBLE

Day 39 !