Tomorrow will be day 4 for me, not looking forward to the football being on cause there's still a part of me that thinks a could win back the money I have lost. Need to try and keep busy, know I can do this but it's going to be hard. Hoping for a good nights sleep cause haven't had one since my latest big loss on Tuesday.
Finding it hard today as its my first saturday since stopping and all the footballs on which i find hard. A small part of me still believes i could win the money back i have lost but a large part of me knows its gone forever. Still alot of guilt about what i could have done with that money ,hoping in time that will pass
chartom3 wrote:
Finding it hard today as its my first saturday since stopping and all the footballs on which i find hard. A small part of me still believes i could win the money back i have lost but a large part of me knows its gone forever. Still alot of guilt about what i could have done with that money ,hoping in time that will pass
Some do some don't
A lot seems to depend on how addicted you got at your worst i'm learning and the steps you put in place to turn this addiction around
keep going
Thanks for the support Triangle
Day 5 doing ok havent came close to placing a bet which is good, but the guilt a feel about the money i have lost is not going anywhere fast.Being able to post on here defintaly helps alot.
Day 6 .... found it hard yesterday when i had some strong urges to chase my money back but managed to stay strong, getting support from people on here has definatly helped alot. Still alot of guilt about the money i have lost and the things i could have done with the family with it, on the plus side tomorrow will be 1 week without a bet.
I found the more I chased the more I lost.
When you lose you double up , double up again and end up putting everything you have on horses , dogs , football just to win the money back you have lost.
The circle is never ending and is no way to live your life.
The urges get easier to deal with , but then sometimes out of the blue even after months urges come back to haunt you.
The urges will always be there it is how you control them which makes you realise.
well i have made it to day 8.... the past few days have been really hard with the urge to try and win my money back which i am so far managing to resist. Still feel a strong guilt about how i could have spent that money on my family which is killing me inside, maybe im just feeling sorry for myself, dont know. Anyway have managed 1 week gamble free and with the help of you guys on here can hopefully keep going.
well i have made it to day 8 not going to lie its been hard and keep getting those dam urges to bet big and win my money back..... has really helped to be able to post on here and to read some of the replys i get, and have been trying to keep busy., starting to realise the true value of money again.!
You have made it past the first week , it is a daily battle inside some days are good others not so good , im in day 79 and still battling the urges.
at least now you can look to the future , est not to think about past losses which will just bring you down and leave you empty , think about what you will do next with your life , a life without gambling.
Hi John, thanks for posting on my diary, means alot to know i am not going through this alone, well done on reaching day 79 great achievement.
Have you started your own recovery diary on here ?
Congratulations on Day 8 chartom3 🙂
You have to draw a line under the money that you've lost...Chasing is what bought most of us here in the 1st place! Had we all stopped when we 1st realised gambling was a losing game we would have handed over many thousands less to the industry! If you gamble & win, you will gamble harder to win more & eventually you will lose everything you have thrown @ it! We cannot win because we cannot stop - The only way to win is to stop! If you think the guilt now is bad, imagine how much worse it will be if you lost another, £10, £20, £100, that could have been better spent on your family, trying to win your money back!
You are doing great! Keep fighting - ODAAT
Thanks ODAAT for taking the time to comment on my diary its such comments that are giving me the stength to not gamble,everthing you have said is spot on and i hope to take it all on board.Thanks for your continued support it really does help.
Day 9 without a gamble..... last night was my biggest test yet was out for a pool match and everyboby in the place seemed to have a bet on the footballl every advert was a gambling one on the tv, temptation was everywhere but a managed to fight the urges.Taking 1 day at a time , i can do this.
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