Here I am again, blew a whole weeks wages in half an hour yesterday and something really has to change. I'm not going to go into a huge speach about myself. I'm just here for some words of advice and somewhere I can keep track of my thoughts and feelings.
Day 1 - not working till 5 so just keeping myself occupied until then.
Today I will not gamble.
Hi Al
The frustration is incredible isn't it? I remember going back to gambling time after time without the ability to change anything. What I didn't realse was I needed to take the right actions to make that happen. Have a read of a few of the other diaries including mine if you wish and see if you can find some tools that help you. Tri
Thanks Tri, I appreciate you taking the time to reply. it is so so frustrating.
Day two. Had work last night so not much temptation as i was kept busy all day. its very hard with the euros on as there is more betting adverts on the telly. my girlfriend works at a clinic to help stop smokers and they sell a stop gambling book. she has baught that back with her and im going to read in to see if it helps. im willing to try almost everything.
Today I will not gamble.
Al
Havnt posted in a couple of days becuase been so busy with work. Still surpressing the feelings and keeping clean. I have handed all financial responsibility to my girlfriend. she will hold onto my cards and cash for me and is being very strict. Its what i need. going to keep it short because I dont really know what to say.
Today I will not gamble.
The days seem to be dragging right on at the moment. It feels like a big weight off my shoulders having my partner take financial control. Feel like I can walk past a bookie with ease (obviously because I have no accsess to any money of which to gamble). I hope the feeling of always being on edge eases off soon. Hope one day it will just be out of my mind.
I have been contact today by a counciling clinic so hopfully get some sessions booked in asap.
Havnt really got an awful lot else to say at the moment.
Today I will not gamble.
Al
Putting the barriers in place can be helpful. I'd suggest you keep them in place for as long as you can but for now keep reading some of the other diaries and you could come on the gamcare chat. Tri
Thanks Tri.I really do appreciate you checking in and reading my posts. The barriers are staying up for now and for the next 6 months at the very least. Just got in from work, relitivly easy shift but leaves alot of time to ponder about debt and such things - not good!. Tomorrow is a new day that I wil not gamble.
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