Betty's journey

Hi, I'm moving forward, I've got to stop looking back - can't change that! I can change the future, I WILL! 

I'm feeling confident and strong the past few days ?

It's been a while since I logged in, I hot a bad patch in life generally, what did I do .. hit the online slots again, if course blew what money I had and hit an all time low... In hindsight I think it was needed, It finally made me really look at my triggers which I hadn't done before, I blocked the last few sights I could access, it took me a few weeks to realise how bad things had gone again.

Pleased to say I'm back... Week 2done with no temptations, started a new job, with extra responsibilities  that will keep my spare time well and truly full for months until the training/induction is fully completed. 

A reset was needed and I think the future looks brighter, a long-term plan is in place for my gambling debt's and I'm looking forward not back .

I have absolutely scewed up again. I've had a few moments spending on gambling again the last few months, I've gone back and forth with it, only stopping few weeks at a time, today I blew everything I have left, I done see a way out, I've nothing left for Xmas or bills .

I absolutely hate myself right now, everyone would be better off without me. 

I have no idea how to get through this  

Hi Betty, I completely relate to everything in this thread. 
I spet the last of my wages today and all my bills come out the beginning of January. Every single one is going to bounce and I am so so stressed. Feel sick!!

U need find a way to stop this get the support u need put blocks on go to GA this is serious addiction at my height of my addiction no amount of money would have stopped me from gambling i blew my family ex partner money to it im still struggling with this addiction my last blow out cost me £750 rather then the £4500 i had saves up i had the urge to get my money back but i did the complete oppsite i treated my family and paid my rent in advance the funny thing was i wasent prepared to buy ipone pro over the basic model yet i wasted money on gambling i even treated my family with the other savings i am now going to save up for a hoilday by 2025 last hoilday was 2015 so will be 10 years by then, hopefully i will be sticking to Ga and this website to reminded the horrors gambling could lead to

Hi everyone, just wanted to check in and let you all know how I've been doing and say thank you you for the support.

I cannot believe it's about 4 months, I cannot believe I'd have ever said I went that long without gambling. 

It's been an absolute struggle, I ruined us financially, I'm am now stronger, Ive come to terms with what I have done and realised I cannot gamble my way out of this mess.

I am now the longest gamble free time since I joined.

I struggle weekly with bills and debts, I've taken on extra extra hours at work and am financially worse off after losing benefits etc but I feel like I'm achieving something, I do have a purpose, never thought I'd say that! 

I may hate what I've done but I cannot change it.

I hope to say in another day, week, month or  more that I'm still gf. 

I do actually believe I can do this!