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wel done cl, and i`m glad youre in a better place, just stay strong and keep as many blocks in place as you can coz this mother bites when you least expect or want it too. keep smiling, keep wining.

Hi LifesWinner

Keep being strong, one step at a time.

Mo

Thanks everyone who posted in the past 24 hrs.

I'm here again double digits and i feel so good about it. Instead of 21 days to complete my 1st goals i only now have 11. I will do this, i can do this, i want to do this. Once i hit 21 days i was thinking of my next realistic goal. Should i go for the 50 days? or should i just try make it to 30? I know it's not much of a goal but for me it's how i am going to approach my recovery and keep the demons at bay. This time round i have never been so devoted to giving up, as i think deep down inside i actually want it, before i would just say it because i lost " I must stop this time" it was false! i never had any intentions to stop. This time its different, this time i want to rebuild and keep my money and give my family everything they deserve!. I have had some urges past few days but quickly stomped on them, did some counting exercises or planned my day. The urges dispersed quite quickly and they did not return again that day.

Feeling so good right now on a natural high and i won't let anyone take that away from me, certainly not gambling anyway. 10 days for me is really huge as you have to understand 30 yrs of gambling everyday it's a big hole or void there when you choose to stop go cold turkey as such. I am learning on this website that people are having slips stumbles etc and feeling low and down about it, that was me for years and i didn't actually believe there could be hope, happiness for me, i labeled myself a degenerate gambler and that's me who i am, what i know, and everything else is incidental and moot. But when you actually stop and look at yourself in the mirror and abstain and maintain for 10 days etc you start to see someone else, the old you! I quite like the old me, he is generous, fun loving, goofy guy, who has lots of love to share, this is the guy my family needs this, is the guy who will be happy and make the most of life. If it takes 10 days to see some of that guy return then roll on 100 days etc because when he fully appears, oh my watch out world lol.. Ok rambling off here but all i can tell you is in 10 days abstaining the person in the mirror staring back i can see happiness and joy returning.

Have a great day guys and gals oh and come on ENGLAND!!!!!!!!

CL

Morning CL

So pleased for you your post is soooo positive and you are really doing brill nothing wrong with small goals as you say mKes it more realistic to believe it can be done

And you doing it

I agree with you you know deep down in your heart when you really have to give up

Keep that good ego feeling going it's working for you

And keep looking in that mirror smiling you are definitely winning cos you know the score

One day at a time

Suzanne xx

Thanks Suzanne,

Well day 11 and i feel a little down today because of the football result. Oh well we will pick it up in our next game.

11 days down and only 10 left to my new goal. Come one England you can do this... No gambling or urges currently so that;s good news...

CL

CL

fella good to read you are setting some achievable targets,keep setting what works for you my friend.

It has been written many times by folk about counting days can have a negative effect on the mind,it can be like counting up to the next day you have a punt,when goals are met the addictive side of the brain says 'treat yourself to a punt,you deserve it!!'

my view is simple,do what works for you,if setting those targets works through counting days then keep setting them.

Recovery is a life choice,one we have a decision to take on a daily basis.

That we all share,never forget today is the most important day,enjoy it,be proud,you are doing something amazing!!

Duncs stepping forward never back.

Morning CL

How can you feel down about the football when you haved reached day 11

Get smiling back into that mirror and stay focused

Hope you have a great positive gambling free day

England has one more chance to stay in the game

You don't have any if you want to get to day 12 and smiling in that mirror lol

Stay focused one day at a time

Take care

Suzanne x

13 days today and i couldn't be happier right now. Spoilt the family rotten over the weekend. I must be vigilant must keep guard as urges tried to creep in just now, i said NO and came straight here to tell you i said NO WAY!!!. I am looking healthier everyday, sleeping well and the gym is giving me my high i need, love those endorphans lol. All good here, keep smiling everyone, we can win this fight, as i chose to abstain and maintain as my friend Duncs says..

CL

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Fella great to read the results of the efforts.

Funny thing is what is the cost of recovery??

not a single penny is spent on it,yet it delivers something for me that you simply cannot put a value upon.

Abstain and maintain

Duncs stepping forward never back

Day 17 and feeling fit and strong,

What an amazing 4 days i had with family. Took baby toy shopping, wife shoe shopping and myself hmmm didn't buy anything lol.. I am so happy in life, 17 days G FREE wow so fast...Now the urges tend to come less frequently but generally its later in the evening when im bored. I am still going to the gym which helps with my high, as after a good workout i feel so incredibly proud and much healthier. Sleep is a little better but for me it's reflection time on what stupid things i have done and how much money lost etc... i have to work hard now to get in good financial status. Those thoughts at night only last about 45 mins but they steal some good quality sleep lol.

As Duns rightly says how much does this recovery cost? nothing! how much does it reward? its unlimited.. My mind frame is much clearer now, i see the value of abstaining, the net worth you get from not spending a penny anymore on G. I am just rambling now but can't hep feeling so good right now.

My guard is very much up because last time it was about now i slipped and got complacent. Not this time NO WAY!!!

Have a great weekend everyone.

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Well done CL, the longer you go the easier it gets - as long as we don't too complainant, keep going and keep strong.

Never give up giving up.

Shaun

Hi CL

Yes FUN is free and so is the choice to not gamble

and it feels good doesn't it

Keep maintaining abstaining and ENJOY

And ofcourse smiling into that mirror

One day at a time we do win every day that is very positive

Suzanne x

day 19 yaaaay.

2 More days and i hit the 3 week mark,. first time i think ever. I will not gamble today or on day 21 or day 30. I'm here committed.

CL

Keep up the good work CL 🙂

Day 20...

I can't believe it, tomorrow is my big day!. I have never ever, ever gone 3 weeks without a gamble in my whole life. You probably don't realize this will most likely be my biggest milestone ever. The rest of the counted days will be just that extension of this milestone. Tonight i will be taking my family out because come Midnight i will see another piece of the old me in the mirror.

Mr Brightside you are just plain awesome Sir, what an amazing write up so positive and im glad im part of your challenge mate.,

Feeling very happy and extremely excited about tomorrow.

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