Change is changing as things have got to change

Decided to get up even though I'm super tired. I remember being scared to get up many times in the last. Day 5. Had some fleeting urges because it's the weekend but I can't even bring myself to go on the sport pages of bbc website so they quickly dissipated. I will not gamble today.

Well done change, you are doing it:))))

Suzanne xxx

Thanks Suzanne. Thinks are changing for me now. I'm seeing things differently and I've taken away the triangles pieces. Time is no longer free. I very carefully consider my location to bookies and internet access. Money barriers are now very firm. It's not made gambling impossible but it's made it very difficult. I feel better protected but also much more resolute.

Sorry to hear of your relapse. Keep trying, you can beat gambling addiction.

Feel inspired to cut up another CC. I usually dont use CCs for bets but I suppose temptation is always there and I need to break that triangle. Dopamine comments are interesting. Near misses are more of a buzz than easy winners for me too.

Well done getting back on the horse and sticking to your mission to stop. These slips will make you a better person and are part of the process. Keep the faith.

Thanks DeG and LL... roll on the start of Day 6.

Day 6 coming to a close and first day where I didn't spend large chunks thinking of the past. Instead I was able to get on with life. Need to remember I'm a compulsive gambler but don't want it to bring me down. Keep the faith as LordLucan says.

LordLucan... interestingly are you a Northern Soul fan?

Change

Please read 'The Power of Now' by Eckhart Tolle, the book is like finding a map to peace inside you. Don't be skeptical and give it a go.

Xx

One week today, well done

Suzanne xxx

I'll look into that Goldfish - see if it's in the library or on amazon.

Thanks Suzanne!

Day 7 today no urges to gamble. Just happy to be living life.

Another good day thus far with less thinking of the past and more of the future. I'm feeling better about this attempt. Seems like I've grown up more after getting few tellings off on here. My focus is more around family and making something of my life rather than on whether a ball lands in the net or in court.

A strange thing I've noticed... I used to hate small talk but now I chat to more random people. Probably because my heads up rather than buried in a mobile and I'm in the mood to find out about people and to take some interest.

Keep the faith.

Hey change proud of you you have started your own recovery journey, :))))

Suzanne xxx

Day 8 - no urges to place a bet but did glance at the champs league fixtures. No chance im going to ruin my progress and I'm looking forward to the next chapter in my journey.