[Closed] Charly's life

Hi Charly

Nice short straight to the point post from Winningpost,so true.Thanks for the post on my diary Charly it means so much to me that you have so much faith in me and can see i wont gamble ever again.Yes i do keep an open mind like yourself and i also believe that what is done is done.We cant change that.But we can change the future.Im glad you have managed to get into work and the chemo must be hard to take.I think we all know now Charly how strong you are in everyway.Stay strong Jeff.

Awww...thank you guys and girls...

You all hold a special place in ole Charly girl's heart... each story different yet so familiar...

Today I have not been lazy(well amybe just a little), lol... my man says I need to chillax, I'm under instructions..hahaha..so funny...he'll have to tie me down to keep me still for as long as he's like me to rest.... I have just prepared for G.A. meeting tonight. We are having a business meeting to discuss various things, including the fact that we have at least 12 regular people but all jobs are left to ??? yup...me... is my own fault really, I just enjoy being busy... it's gonna stop..need "me" time and look after charly girl so it is being handed over tonight...secretary and treasurer job gotta go. Am already Regional treasurer and National trustee and love every minute of it, but I have to delegate and let others have a go. Should be fun to see who can give something back. It's not rocket science and it doesn't take a lot of time either...only, with all the other stuff I do it adds up...

Oh Happy Days.... am having ups and downs thanks to the chemo...one minute I am fine, the next I feel sick... am losing weight, which on one side is fabulous(I have put on a lot since my last chemo due to the steroids) on the other hand it isn't because losing weight means the cancer is still working at full throttle... but hey hum..am sure the chemo will blast it to oblivion... am grateful to have this diary to rant or just randomly write thoughts down. You all give me strength. Thank you my gamcarian friends...

Love and Hugs to all of you

God Bless

Sabine xx

Charly,

I read the first few pages of your diary and I will read more when I get more time. thanks for posting it and for posting on my diary so that I found your link.

It's amazing how the logic of gamblers is so familiar !

Brian

Hi Charly,

Thanks for your support on my diary. Must admit am never quite sure what to say to you though i do follow your thoughts. When I read about your health worries and chemo I kinda feel how lucky I am to have my health. I hope that your treatments are successful.

As for the heavy involvement with Ga thats highly commendable but i think you say it yourself.. try not to over do it. Ive heard stories of people becoming addicted to Ga and strangely some have then returned to gambling. I don't see it happening to you but like you say.. delegate where you can. Finding that balance between helping others and helping yourself.

All the best with your continued recovery from gambling and with your health. Warm Regards.. S.A

Hi Sabine,

Glad to read you are delegating more - it gets quite addictive in itself being super-busy, but sometimes it means you neglect yourself.

Sorry to hear the chemo is making you feel rotten. Do you mind me asking what it entails? although its probably the last thing you want to do, to write all about it. It certainly sounds as though the cancer was spotted quickly, which has got to be good.

Hope you have had a good weekend.

Take care,

f x

Hi ((((((charly))))))))))

Hope things are improving on the health front.

Much Love

Kim xx

Hello (((Sabine)))

Sending you so much strength & love girl.

Thinking of you

Jackie xx

Thank you Ade, BrianJ, S.A., Feda, Kim and Jac for your posts. As always, they are appreciated.

Oh my, can't believe I haven't logged on for over a week. Time just seems to run away with me.

Have handed over stuff at G.A. meeting, just said... this is everyones group, not just mine, can't do it all and I am not taking the brief case home tonight, so step up to the mark...and guess what, they did. Group now has secretary and deputy and treasurer and deputy..... funny that...guess boys just need a kick up the proverbial every now and then...

(just kidding, I am girl and need a kick sometimes)

Today is the day I am having my check ups and then I am having a central line fitted, which means ..no more needles ..hooray...

tomorrow is the next chemo shot...

not looking forward to the side effects but ..as I know what is coming I can be a girl guide and be prepared..or was that the scout motto?..lol

Anyhow...this is better then the alternative so I am grateful to modern medicines...thank you to all the research people who have enabled me to have this treatment...

Angel and I are off camping from Saturday to Wednesday to try out the new tent ...yeah...

4 days of bliss..no phones.... no tv.... no-one to hassle us.... can't wait...

We are going camping right next door to Monkey World in Dorset...hehehe...paradise for me...

As some of you know, when I need "Me" time, I drive to Monkey World and just chillax....

I am really looking forward to this break....

Will tell you all about it when we are back.

I will leave some thoughts from Hazelden at the end of my post. I hope to find the time this week to log on and read some of your stories... you are all close to my heart...

Here's to a gamble free week and weekend.

God Bless

Charly/Sabine

Today's thought from Hazelden is:

Are you meeting roadblocks to recovery?

A disorder means out of order, not the way things should be. Are we convinced that addictive behavior is counter to the way we are intended to function? Or do we harbor, somewhere in the back of our minds, the idea that we'll never change our habits?

Fear of change, unwillingness to change, and lack of confidence in our ability to change are all roadblocks to recovery. Believing in our capabilities is the first step toward clearing those roadblocks and realizing our potential in recovery.

Somewhere along the line we developed an addiction, but we don't have to be under its power forever. We can think about what a Higher Power would want for us, and we can decide to move toward that positive goal.

The roadblocks of fear, unwillingness, and lack of confidence will give way as we immerse ourselves in the Twelve Step program. We need help, and we have help. We give help, and we receive it. Changing to constructive habits may be slow sometimes, but it's always possible.

If I'm faced with a roadblock today, I will call on my spiritual resources.

You are reading from the book:

Inner Harvest by Elisabeth L.

Hi charlie.I don't know you but i do pop in now and then and check up on your diary.

I think you are an inspiration to all on here.

Hope you have a great camping trip with your angel and you'll get some sleep from those monkeys.Lol.

Good luck with everthing else in your life.

Stay strong!

Viggo.

Hey Charly,

Thanks for dropping by my diary. Sending you lots of love and strength girl!

Im not surprised you are not finding much time to post with all thats going on for you! There is a list someone devised, of the 20 most stressful life events. There are things on there like divorce, moving house etc. - but let me tell you, you have hit a few on the list in just the last 6 months.

You come across as very strong, but take lots of time for charly ok? or I will have to tell you off! lol.

Take care,

f x

(((((Charly/Sabine))))

I hope you have been enjoying a break and this lovely sunshine.

I have been thinking of you a lot this week.

Take care my friend, lots of love

W xxx

Hope you have been enjoying some relaxing time Charly,

Just wanted to drop by to send you some love and support but don't really know what to say! lol.

I enjoyed reading your thought from hazelden. it helped me. I have been low in confidence in my ability to change. It felt very apt.

Take care,

f x

Hi Charly,

I hope camping went well, I am also at that point where I need people to stand up and be counted.

I am getting away in my camper next Friday, looking forward to chill out time.

I have had a tough few weeks, marriage upset and some work issues. Still gamble free and working my programme.

God bless Charly,

Luv Pxx

Hope your doing ok Charly Girl........

Post soon.....

In the meantime get loads of 'me' time eh??

TC

Kim xxx

Hi Charly,

You ok sweetie? Post soon. Thinking of you.

Jas xx