Day 13....
Feeling strong today and I am beginning to believe it possible... I still haven't spent a penny on gambling and I feel a lot stronger....Iin weston for the weekend so all temptations to be resisted.... I can say with some pride I am winning at the momentas I approach the two week mark...
Day thirteen I still dream.... tommorrow I still live
Dream alive...
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db
my friend I think that we build a wall between ourselves and that last bet we had,each day we get to lay another brick in the wall,it protects us,it shows us a result from making the right choice,it slowly means that gambling has a hard job to climb that wall and tempt us back at it.
Truth is for me addiction will always be there but through your efforts it will just sit sulking looking up at the wall you build.
Take strength from your efforts,f**k occasionally don't lay a brick,instead stand on top of your wall and throw one at addiction,enjoy it,enjoy the self belief,the control you have gifted your life.
Run addiction!! db is holding a big brick,it has your name on the side!!!!
abstain and maintain my friend
I did win because I did stop
Your new life mantra
All for free,nothing to stake and the rewards priceless.
Duncs stepping forward never back.
Hi DB
13 days of dreaming and it working well for you well done
Suzanne x
Day 14,
Another weekend conqured and thank you for the ongoing support.... it is at this point I have to stop and remember why I came here... you see it is quite easy to forget the desperation I felt at this point just two weeks ago....
I think this is because after a binge it hits you hard... smack between the eyes... you see no hope of ever shaking the evils of the addiction.... by two weeks you relax and complacency is also a lead to temptation as that next bet is still a fresh possibility.... I know now where that leads... to desperation heartach and despair....
I am stronger now than ever before... I have strength and focus and can see a future. ... each day preying that I had my last gamble two weeks ago...
Strength to all this week
Today I am dreaming.... tommorrow I live....
Dream alive
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Day 15....
Another gamble free day.... I went to thr garage earlier whilst away from home and the tought of buying a scratch card flashed through my mind.... then I remembered the slippery slope that this has caused on so many occasions... I resisted and the urge quickly went from my mind....
15 days free.... target is 15 more...
Today I dream.... tomorrow I live
Dream alive
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Days 16 and 17,
After being away on training for two days time to catch up with the diary. ... still completely gamble free.... definitely not gone this long without spending a penny on any form of gambling. ....
We went for a meal for two nights in the same pub... as you walked into the pub their were two fruit machines flashing merrily away... as I went to the bar and ordered a drink there were two more behind me....
The buzz of electricity went through me... for compolsive gamblers they will understand this... the mouth goes dry... you take in every aspect of that machine with the thoughts of playing looming over... you almost feel slightly naughty...
You resist and take your seat but you can still here others puttingcoins into it and sometimes taking some out....
I resist as now I have to do but this time I sit and think about what occurred... uncritical because I managed to resist....
Imagine that you are giving up smoking.... you walk into a pub and someone you really fancy offers you a cigarrette... you can see the smoke smell the tempting aroma.... this is repeated 4 more times untill you take your seat... each time you fancy the person more and the pressure on you to just have a quick draw is intensified.... you would really struggle to resist that...
You take your seat... you can still smell the smoke... see it blown high in the sky... hear the conversation of the pretty people you had resisted and do this for two hours... how hard will that be for any addict of any form...
People do give up smoking... and its tough.... I am a failed tryer.... but I truely feel the resist to gamble is as intense if not more its everywhere... wether it be in front of you at a store when you buy a pepsi... every other add on the television or even now sitting in a pub having a drink...
These are only my thoughts but very real for me...
17 days and I am winning... resisting temptation. ..
Thats why today I dream and why tommorrow I resist temptation and win...
Dream alive
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Days 16 and 17,
After being away on training for two days time to catch up with the diary. ... still completely gamble free.... definitely not gone this long without spending a penny on any form of gambling. ....
We went for a meal for two nights in the same pub... as you walked into the pub their were two fruit machines flashing merrily away... as I went to the bar and ordered a drink there were two more behind me....
The buzz of electricity went through me... for compolsive gamblers they will understand this... the mouth goes dry... you take in every aspect of that machine with the thoughts of playing looming over... you almost feel slightly naughty...
You resist and take your seat but you can still here others puttingcoins into it and sometimes taking some out....
I resist as now I have to do but this time I sit and think about what occurred... uncritical because I managed to resist....
Imagine that you are giving up smoking.... you walk into a pub and someone you really fancy offers you a cigarrette... you can see the smoke smell the tempting aroma.... this is repeated 4 more times untill you take your seat... each time you fancy the person more and the pressure on you to just have a quick draw is intensified.... you would really struggle to resist that...
You take your seat... you can still smell the smoke... see it blown high in the sky... hear the conversation of the pretty people you had resisted and do this for two hours... how hard will that be for any addict of any form...
People do give up smoking... and its tough.... I am a failed tryer.... but I truely feel the resist to gamble is as intense if not more its everywhere... wether it be in front of you at a store when you buy a pepsi... every other add on the television or even now sitting in a pub having a drink...
These are only my thoughts but very real for me...
17 days and I am winning... resisting temptation. ..
Thats why today I dream and why tommorrow I resist temptation and win...
Dream alive
:):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):)
Day 18.....
Bright sunny day..... I will not gamble....
Today I dream tommorrow I live
Dream alive
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Hi DB
Well done on day 18 you are dreaming and winning
Suzanne x
Days 19, 20 and 21,
Been sooo busy this weekend so checking in has been tough. ...
3 good days... been fully occupied and have not succumbed to the dreaded fobt thats 3 weeks now....
I have decided to pull away from the diary and see if I can go it alone.... unless I have an epic fail I will check in only from time to time.....
By no means do I think I am cured but initially it has served its purpose. ...
Continued strength to you all.....
Today I dream... tomorrow I live....
Keep the dream alive
🙂 x21
Days 19, 20 and 21,
Been sooo busy this weekend so checking in has been tough. ...
3 good days... been fully occupied and have not succumbed to the dreaded fobt thats 3 weeks now....
I have decided to pull away from the diary and see if I can go it alone.... unless I have an epic fail I will check in only from time to time.....
By no means do I think I am cured but initially it has served its purpose. ...
Continued strength to you all.....
Today I dream... tomorrow I live....
Keep the dream alive
🙂 x21
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