I’m really chuffed to have made it to Day 18 GF.
It’s not been too bad, I’ll admit I’ve clicked on a couple of apps out of curiosity & so pleased that Gamstop is working.
Not mindlessly playing on slots has made me focus on trying to look at why I was trying to lose myself in gambling.
I’ve felt a huge amount of work pressure, trying to keep what amounts to three jobs running & juggling a degree, relationship, throw in a pandemic for good measure & boom a recipe to look for escape. Unfortunately my choice was not healthy & just masked everything else. I felt stuck when I was gambling, like I could not look any other aspect of my life or move forward.
I had spoken to employer around a month ago to explain I was struggling with the workload but apart the right ‘buzz’ words nothing had really been addressed. I eventually spoke to my Doctor Friday & he has signed me off with work related stress ? My employer was very understanding & coincidentally the budget was agreed that afternoon for another colleague with extra help to my existing team.
I’m angry that it had to get this far & still angry that I lost my hard earned money but conflicted that at least I managed to stop gambling, I do feel strong enough to not gamble.
I just need to concentrate on healing now & then finding a way forward to cope. I’m going to self refer for some counselling as the Doctor suggested so hoping it helps.
I’m hoping if I can keep working on the reasons why I was gambling then that will hope me not to return to it.
Sending best wishes to everyone on the forum xxx
Well done , keep it up ??
Great post and congratulations on 18 days. Be proud and be focussed X
Thank you for your kind comments.
Day 22 today, still gamble free ??
Felt up & down last few days, been struggling with my feelings but again grateful for not gambling.
Trying to face how I feel instead of masking it with gambling & glad at least I am feeling instead of numbness of before.
Off for a walk shortly, I know I’ll fell brighter if get out & get some fresh air.
Wishing everyone a good gamble free weekend x
Day 32
Still gamble free ?? Starting CBT on Thursday & looking to return to work on Monday 7th after a break from the stress.
So lovely to see the sunshine ? sending gamble free wishes to everyone on the forum ? x
Well done that's amazing ? ?
Day 50 GF
Made it to 50 days ? Really chuffed, still have weak moments & occasional slot dream but it’s ok.
Gamble free let’s me focus on life, I can actually concentrate on things instead of being preoccupied with wanting to chase my losses.
Sending best wishes & gamble free vibes to all, we have got this ?? x
57 days GF ?? Life is making so much more sense without gambling.
Wishing everyone on the forum gamble free & positive thoughts, we can do this ? x
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