Day 5 today didn't post day 4 as I was too busy sorting my life out and finding me as a person.
I've no urges to gamble the only urge I have in my life right now is to sort my life out and this is what I'm doing slowly piecing each bit together like a 10000 piece jigsaw.
I've realised that I can't chase a win or get my money back the guilt does c*****e me but I know deep down I got this now.
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When I've took a step back and analysed it all it's been so much better I've not had any hot cold sweats in the night worrying and as far as I'm concerned the game is dead to me now.
I'm feeling so upbeat and relaxed about this journey no panicking that I can't play the game no thinking I can't do this because I know I can we can we are all stronger than we know and braver than we think.
I've got.oney in the bank and that's were it's staying in the bank because its mine and I'm going to treat myself again too I've deprived myself of so much it's unreal but no more I work hard for my.money no firm online casino is going to get another penny of my hard earned cash and it feels great that I understand so much more than I once did the world is our oyster let it grow into something beautiful ?Â
hey very true I know my triggers very deeply now I realise why I do what I do and y I feel.what I feel yes money in the bank but fir me not to hand it over to anyone else when u step.bk u truly get a true sense of direction and choices and paths you want to go on.
For me gambling was an escape of alot hurt trust etc I get that now and I'm never ever prepared to.go.bk there I can't wait fir the summer now and planning before it frightened me but now I'm so ready to make plans and be happy x
U too x
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