Day 5 today didn't post day 4 as I was too busy sorting my life out and finding me as a person.
I've no urges to gamble the only urge I have in my life right now is to sort my life out and this is what I'm doing slowly piecing each bit together like a 10000 piece jigsaw.
I've realised that I can't chase a win or get my money back the guilt does c*****e me but I know deep down I got this now.
When I've took a step back and analysed it all it's been so much better I've not had any hot cold sweats in the night worrying and as far as I'm concerned the game is dead to me now.
I'm feeling so upbeat and relaxed about this journey no panicking that I can't play the game no thinking I can't do this because I know I can we can we are all stronger than we know and braver than we think.
I've got.oney in the bank and that's were it's staying in the bank because its mine and I'm going to treat myself again too I've deprived myself of so much it's unreal but no more I work hard for my.money no firm online casino is going to get another penny of my hard earned cash and it feels great that I understand so much more than I once did the world is our oyster let it grow into something beautiful ?
Hi
Good for you 5 gambling free days.
It sounds very healthy sorting your life out after some time self absuing your self.
You are finding your self as a person, and also get to know the hurt inner child in you.
Having no urges to gamble sounds so much more is possible in your life today.
You are slowly piecing each bit together like a 10000 piece jigsaw yes yet it does not take to long to get a perpsective of the fuller picture of our life.
What are our needs what are our wants and what are our goals.
The money that has been wasted is gone the sooner we let go of that theeasier it gets.
I am not able to change the past, accepting serenity helps me with that one.
Yes guilt tripping our self is self destructive and unhealthy just let go and learn from ht epast but do not live in it.
Taking a step back and understanding our self and our vulnerability helps us a lot.
You feeling relaxed that costs extra.
For me feeling relaxed help me undrstand at that moment my fears were very low.
But beware of our emotional trigger, that is very important.
No fears no panicking, high levels of fear panicking stress anxiety, doubt not healthy at all.
Money in the bank only gives you more choices.
Money was never going to heal my hurt inner child.
Money helps us feel more secure, that is healthy.
Money on its own will; not make us feel succesful.
For me being succesful was all about me being productive having healthy actions and having healthy wods.
Only when I love myself can I love another person.
Only when I respect myself can I respect another person.
Only when I have honesty with myself can have honesty with another person.
Only when I have intimacy myself can have intimacy with another person.
For me when I wasted my hard earned cash I was working for nothing.
You can be as healthy as you want or need to be today
Love and peace to every one
Dave L
AKA Dave of Beckenham UK
@gadaveuk hey very true I know my triggers very deeply now I realise why I do what I do and y I feel.what I feel yes money in the bank but fir me not to hand it over to anyone else when u step.bk u truly get a true sense of direction and choices and paths you want to go on.
For me gambling was an escape of alot hurt trust etc I get that now and I'm never ever prepared to.go.bk there I can't wait fir the summer now and planning before it frightened me but now I'm so ready to make plans and be happy x
Hi
Planning things out makes a big difference to peoples recovery.
Have a nice week end.
Dave L
U too x
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